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I smoke, I drink, I have cancer. I deserve no support

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Ok, so I have been in and out of this site for 2 years now. But I have never heard anyone talk about smoking, sometimes about drinking, but that all seems okay. Do you know, I have had so much support from people on this site and I hope I have returned it to others in some small way, but never have I had a discussion or seen a discussion about smoking on this site. I fear I will alienate those who have supported me or feel that I have betrayed those I have tried to support I guess. I'm not a tramp (although it wouldn't matter if I was), I'm a successful well paid manager. I have or had cancer for the last 2 years and I smoke and I drink. There it is. I don't need to hear that it's bad, because I know it is. When I was diagnosed, I did give up (both), but when I started to get better, I started again. For me, I just wanted to feel normal again, the old me, not the new cancer victim me. I'm sorry to those that fight this and I continue to press that self destruction button. Obviously I'm not that sorry because I continue to do it. I'm sure this entry will inspire some antagonism or self help support, I just want to tell the truth. I'm sorry. Julie xxx

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    Hi there,

    Thought I would add my two penny worth.  I also smoked from my teens through to my early thirties.  I only gave up because I was so ill one winter with a chest infection and the flu.  I was so scared I went cold turkey and until last week, when at a Funeral, and finding it all hard to cope with, I hadn't touched them for about 23 years. I ended cadging a ciggie off my son and lit up.  I have to say it was disgusting and I only smoked it half way before stubbing it out.  I am 56 years old and should know better but hey I am human!!!!!!!  I also like a glass of red, rose or white wine (I'm not fussed as long as it tastes nice), Cider (magners I love), lager and if I can get my hands on it, the odd lass of champers.  I also like cream cakes and desserts and have them now and again even though I am type 2 diabetic and,  as far as I am concerned, even though I break the rules, I do not deserve  the breast cancer, the diabetes or the IBS  or anything else my friend upstairs, thinks he will throw at me.

    No one is perfect, and your life is for living, and you should not change for anyone, because you are you and you should be proud of that.

    PHEW that felt good.

    Take care,

    Love,

    Bubbles. xx

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    Hi there,

    Thought I would add my two penny worth.  I also smoked from my teens through to my early thirties.  I only gave up because I was so ill one winter with a chest infection and the flu.  I was so scared I went cold turkey and until last week, when at a Funeral, and finding it all hard to cope with, I hadn't touched them for about 23 years. I ended cadging a ciggie off my son and lit up.  I have to say it was disgusting and I only smoked it half way before stubbing it out.  I am 56 years old and should know better but hey I am human!!!!!!!  I also like a glass of red, rose or white wine (I'm not fussed as long as it tastes nice), Cider (magners I love), lager and if I can get my hands on it, the odd lass of champers.  I also like cream cakes and desserts and have them now and again even though I am type 2 diabetic and,  as far as I am concerned, even though I break the rules, I do not deserve  the breast cancer, the diabetes or the IBS  or anything else my friend upstairs, thinks he will throw at me.

    No one is perfect, and your life is for living, and you should not change for anyone, because you are you and you should be proud of that.

    PHEW that felt good.

    Take care,

    Love,

    Bubbles. xx

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