Hi Julie

I think this is a great subject to bring up.Guilt and ill health go hand in hand and it is hard to accept that as an intelligent person life gets in the way and you can knowingly make a bad choice.I struggled with the "was it something I had done " question for  a long time(my crutch was the drink and while i was not a drunk I would have hobnailed my liver if i had kept down that path )

The worse you feel the more you need a crutch and you cannot know for sure where one problem started and another began.

In my early 30s i had a bad time with my health and after a particulry bad 6 months and 6 operations  and i had signed up with a herbailst  I decided that i would do the full on healthy living thing-I wasnt quite sober,raw vegan but I was heading in that direction

.Idealy this would mean I did not get sick again but if i did i would know that i could not have done anything different.I was 35 when they told me the problems were genetic and 37 when they caught the cancer on the first scan which was already stage 4 so i got half my wish.Fear is a good thing if it sends you in the right direction and i have no regrets about putting the effort into the heathy living because i had a better quality of life and  dont think i couuld have managed another dose of guilt.

I had a lot more cake and wine after they found the cancer.I hope i am not sounding to rightous its just that guilt is a big issue for me and I just throught i would write this because as you say, we all know what we are supposed to be doing but there are other factors that we have to deal with and we  face some hurdles when we are ready for them.

Now i am NED i do more of the healthy stuff again but my favorite  cure for a bad cold is

take a bowler hat and put it on the end of the bed.

Take a jug of hot toddies to bed

Keep drinking untill you can see two bowler hats.

Hi Julie

I think this is a great subject to bring up.Guilt and ill health go hand in hand and it is hard to accept that as an intelligent person life gets in the way and you can knowingly make a bad choice.I struggled with the "was it something I had done " question for  a long time(my crutch was the drink and while i was not a drunk I would have hobnailed my liver if i had kept down that path )

The worse you feel the more you need a crutch and you cannot know for sure where one problem started and another began.

In my early 30s i had a bad time with my health and after a particulry bad 6 months and 6 operations  and i had signed up with a herbailst  I decided that i would do the full on healthy living thing-I wasnt quite sober,raw vegan but I was heading in that direction

.Idealy this would mean I did not get sick again but if i did i would know that i could not have done anything different.I was 35 when they told me the problems were genetic and 37 when they caught the cancer on the first scan which was already stage 4 so i got half my wish.Fear is a good thing if it sends you in the right direction and i have no regrets about putting the effort into the heathy living because i had a better quality of life and  dont think i couuld have managed another dose of guilt.

I had a lot more cake and wine after they found the cancer.I hope i am not sounding to rightous its just that guilt is a big issue for me and I just throught i would write this because as you say, we all know what we are supposed to be doing but there are other factors that we have to deal with and we  face some hurdles when we are ready for them.

Now i am NED i do more of the healthy stuff again but my favorite  cure for a bad cold is

take a bowler hat and put it on the end of the bed.

Take a jug of hot toddies to bed

Keep drinking untill you can see two bowler hats.