Hello Hope ,I am so sorry that you are feeling so low this grief is a very hard and unpridictable road to follow loosing both parents in such a short time is terrible but try to think you are so lucky to have a lovely husband and family to love and support you togerther with the lovely people on this forum,I lost my darling husband Tony on Feb 5th 2013 we had been married 40 years and I miss him so much my heart is broken im so lonely and think of him constantly,but I do have a lovely family who live close by and Imtrying to move on but like you find it very difficult to move on but im going to try as Tony wouldnt want me to feel like this and im sure your parents would only want you to be happy and carry on with your head held high .No one can take away your memories  Hope ,This journey of grief we are on is hard but we are stronger than we think and will get through it, it will make you stronger..I would love to give you a hug so virtual hugs are on their way take care Hope ...Susanannexx

Hello Hope

I am sad that you are feeling this terrible pain that grief gives us it is hard and tough, and to lose both parents so close together is dreadful and the pain must be horrendous.  But my love as Susananne as said you have a wonderful husband and family to support you who love you dearly.  I am sure your mum and dad are still with you watching you and loving you and they would be very, very, sad to think that you are feeling so low.

I lost my lovely David after 45 years of marriage  and I still feel heart broken but I am desperately trying to move on  and don't get me wrong I still have very bad days but he, like your parents would be very sad if you didn't live your life happily.

I am thinking of you Hope and hope with family, friends and this wonderful forum you can begin to find some inner peace.

Hugs to you

Beryl xxx

Hi Beryl, and thank you for taking the time to post me.  I know you understand the sadness, sometimes it's just overwhelming isn't it?  I hope my parents are watching over me, I think they would think I am mad to have taken on the challenge of renovating their house!  My son said that it would be lovely to bring it up to date to our era as in his words "grandad did it all for his era".  I have read many posts on your thread and know how hard it is for you without your lovely David.  I was so glad to see that you had met up with Joan on this site as you seem to have a lot in common.  Thank goodness there are always people on here who understand.  Thanks again.  Hope x

Hello Beryl ,How are you I dont come on to the forum a lot lately but had to check to see how everyone is ,and noticed your text to Hope poor dear loosing both parents so close together ,luckily she has a lovely hubby and family to help her through ,I see you have had some decorating done and so glad you are happy with it My son painted Tonys room and I have replaced the hospital bed with a bed settee for when grandchildren stay and I added new curtains ,but I still call it Tonys room .My brother came down yesterday and we went out for lunch which was nice he lost his wife Margaret aged 59 to cancer 6 years ago she was my best friend and Tony was his we were teenagers together  those were the days I hope the weather hasnt caused too much damage where you are its been terrible the electric cable came down it supplyed electric to my cottage and next door but we were connected within the day luckily Rusty and I have been getting wet daily but yesterday was beautiful warm and sunny then rain again today Im sure your lovely David would be proud of you getting the decorating done and it keeps you busy but dont work to hard will you Rusty and Button are sleeping at the mo ment so im going to have lunch and a glass of wine I wish you could join me and we could try to put the world to rights ha ha ,Love to you Beryl and hugs hope to talk soon .....Susananne x

Dearest Susananne

How lovely to hear from you I too feel for hope terribly and as you say luckily she has a wonderful caring husband and that will mean such a lot.   I love my new room it was David's favourite and he spent the bulk of his time there when he was so poorly and I just couldn't go into it I called it the cancer room  but now it is called the fuschia room as fuscias were one of David's flowers it looks really good.

I was thinking of you on 5th February and absolutely feeling your pain my heart went out to you my love so glad that day has gone for you Susananne anyway as I have always said your Tony is still with you watching over you and loving you with all his heart.

Oh how I would love  to join you for a glass of wine and meet your Rusty and Button  I would take Rusty for a walk whilst you had a rest and then come back for more wine and like you said put the world to rights or we could try.

Love and hugs to you

Lots of love

Beryl xxxx

Dearest Susananne

How lovely to hear from you I too feel for hope terribly and as you say luckily she has a wonderful caring husband and that will mean such a lot.   I love my new room it was David's favourite and he spent the bulk of his time there when he was so poorly and I just couldn't go into it I called it the cancer room  but now it is called the fuschia room as fuscias were one of David's flowers it looks really good.

I was thinking of you on 5th February and absolutely feeling your pain my heart went out to you my love so glad that day has gone for you Susananne anyway as I have always said your Tony is still with you watching over you and loving you with all his heart.

Oh how I would love  to join you for a glass of wine and meet your Rusty and Button  I would take Rusty for a walk whilst you had a rest and then come back for more wine and like you said put the world to rights or we could try.

Love and hugs to you

Lots of love

Beryl xxxx