Hi Hope,

Its me back again. I just found this and I thought you might like it.

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I hope you like this. Take care, will chat again soon, Brian.

Dear Brian,

Thank you once again for coming to my rescue.  I don't know what's wrong with me at the moment, I just seem to cry all the time and can't handle the slightest thing - hence why the house project is upsetting me so much.  I always take on board what you say to me, and I do believe you when you say that time heals.  I'm so glad too that you think I will get my "usual" self back again, I was beginning to think this is the best it gets.  Thank you for the lovely poem, brought a tear to my eye again; but it is true, I have to choose to be happy it's just so hard sometimes.  I know my parents wouldn't want me to sitting crying over whether I'd made right or wrong decisions, it's just that initial when we gutted the house it felt better, sort of less emotional - but now it feels sad, I feel like I've taken away everything they had.  However, I do realise it has to be in a worse state before it looks better and I'm sure I will feel better when it does.  Everything just seems like a long slog at the moment.  I will try and get my positivity back, and thanks again for being there for me; it really means a lot to receive other peoples opinions on things as I think my head is muddled just now.  Take care.  Hope xx

Hi Hope,

The emotional turmoil you are going through at the moment is easy for me to understand. So many things have been building up for some while and the house thing is bringing matters to a head. I know things are tough and you say you cry at the slightest thing,but in a way that's good for its just natures way of releasing those built up emotions over which we have no control. I too felt sad when clearing mothers house. Disposing of things she had accumulated over the years made me feel so sad, for she was never able to buy anything new until the last few years of her life, she always had to make do with second hand goods. Knowing this made it so hard to dispose of them.

Sorry the poem made you cry, it was not what I intended believe me, but when I saw it this morning I felt I just had to send it to you.

I can tell you that things will improve although normal life will never be quite the same normal as in the past. One lesson I have learnt in life, nothing ever stays the same, nothing is permanent, sad though this is. Please take care, we are here for anytime, Brian.

Hi Hope,

The emotional turmoil you are going through at the moment is easy for me to understand. So many things have been building up for some while and the house thing is bringing matters to a head. I know things are tough and you say you cry at the slightest thing,but in a way that's good for its just natures way of releasing those built up emotions over which we have no control. I too felt sad when clearing mothers house. Disposing of things she had accumulated over the years made me feel so sad, for she was never able to buy anything new until the last few years of her life, she always had to make do with second hand goods. Knowing this made it so hard to dispose of them.

Sorry the poem made you cry, it was not what I intended believe me, but when I saw it this morning I felt I just had to send it to you.

I can tell you that things will improve although normal life will never be quite the same normal as in the past. One lesson I have learnt in life, nothing ever stays the same, nothing is permanent, sad though this is. Please take care, we are here for anytime, Brian.

Hi again Brian,

Thanks for your message.  The poem only made me cry because it was lovely, and so true, so thank you for it.  I understand about the personal things you found hard to dispose of from your mother's house, it is the silliest little things that get you isn't it? I really want things to improve as I know my parents wouldn't want me to remain sad.  I have tried everything to be happy and sometimes it works, but then sometimes you just feel like you've taken another huge step backwards.  I hope your wise words that I will be stronger from this, are right; I want to be a stronger person so I can help others who have to go through this horrendous ordeal.  I'm meeting up with a friend today, so I hope that may make me feel a bit better and more positive to continue this journey.  Thanks again Brian.  Hope x