Hi i finish chemo friday and i am mixed emotions, run for my life and wth is happening now ! 

Hello Kelly1968

I'm sorry to hear about all that you've been through over the last year. It sounds like your uninvited guest really put you through the mill in terms of treatment and adjusting to the new changes that come with a colostomy. Whilst it's great to hear that you've recently had the all clear, it's understandable that this news may have been overwhelming. 

We know that many people will understand the way you're feeling right now. Whilst you're in the thick of treatment, concentrating on getting through each day and passing each treatment milestone, it keeps us busy. And once that all comes to an end, and I think particularly when people are given such good news, it can leave us feeling adrift. Often, that is when the task of starting to psychologically process all that you've been through begins. Please know that you are not alone in feeling this way. 

It sounds like it would be a good idea to get some support at this point to help you reach a better place with your anxiety and mental health. I'd start by making an appointment to talk with your GP. It may be that some medication can help alongside some talking therapy. I'd also recommend reaching out to your specialist cancer nurse as well. Hopefully, they will be able to give you some reassurance, and they will know what specialist cancer support services may be available in your area, such as an oncology psychologist or perhaps a charity such as Maggie's, where you can access counselling. If you'd like to chat with one of our team of lovely nurses, I know they would be very happy to listen and offer any advice and support they can. They're available Monday to Friday, 9am to 5pm on 0808 800 4040. 

You're not alone Kelly1968. Keep posting here on the Cancer Chat forum if it helps to have a safe space to put things down in writing. You've taken the first steps in reaching out for support by making this post. We're here for you. 

Sending my best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator