Hi

if you would like to talk about it message me and we can do it privetly

Erika xx

Hi Ladies (and Tony)

I thought it was about time that I checked in...... lots of things have happened to me in the last year.

I have really struggled since losing my mum, and seemed to have more bad days than good........ but that finally seems to have turned around now.

Let me give you the short version

I had reconstructive surgery April 2011 and unfortunately the left side rejected..... I then had to wait 10 months before they did it again..... this time it didn't reject, but the filler port went missing..... after 3 or 4 appointments, the surgeon finally sent me for an ultra sound.... and then they found the filler port, but it had collapsed under the bottom rib, causing the implant to flip over, so when ever i took my sports bra off, my left breast slipped down my chest about 6 inches (looking back now i can see the funny side ) but at the time i didn't.

I was supposed to be going on holiday to Portugal on the 13th of this month but I had to cancel because I had more surgery scheduled for 11th May..... The surgery seemed to go well and I have 2 boobs again, but it now looks like the surgeon has used a bigger implant in the left side than the right (deep joy) So I'm sat writing this with a chest full of stitches.... but I feel whole again for the first time in 20 months...... and the holiday has been re booked for last week in august, so that will give me something to aim for.

I dont know if i have to have more surgery until i go back to the consultant on thursday..... I will keep you all informed.

Another plus is...... I am doing the race for life on the 24th June..... in fact we have a team from my local pub "the corner pin girls" there are 7 of us doing it so far, my daughter, her best mate (landlady's daughter) a young barmaid, my friend and her daughter and our friend Ann, a pensioner who is a regular in the pub...... we have raised quite a lot of money already................... All the youngsters are jogging, and Ann got a bit upset because she said she was going to walk it..... I told her i was walking it too, so we would walk together...... to which Ann said "I will probably come last"..... so i just smiled and said "Ann, you're a pensioner and i will be a month out of surgery, as long as we finish, that's all that matters"...... so that is something else to look forward to.

I think I have rambled on enough now..... I am glad to see so many people doing so well

Love to all

Caz Xxx

Hiya hun

Don't apologise for ranting we all need to sometimes.  How are you feeling today?

I know how you feel because I felt exactly the same way. Tbh second time around is easier and harder in equal measures.  Easier as in you know what to expect but harder for the same reason.  I got through it by constantly telling myself I've beaten this before I can do it again. I heard these words recently and they are so true. Don't look too far into the future and take each day one step at a time. You've beaten this before hun and you can do it again. As always we've got each others support and someone to listen and understand when we think no one else does. 

Sending you a cyber hug

Donna xx

Hi girls

Just wanted you alll to know thinking of you and sending massive cyber hugs to see you thru this ! Xxxx

Lots of love nina xxxxx

Hi Ladies

So good to hear from you thought you had all forgotten about me lol only joking.

Yesterday was a bad day my mind was all over the place needed time out from everyone started crying from morning to night which is so unlike me, not sure if it is because they have stopped my tamoxifen or everything racing round my head probably both. I was also very sore from the second surgery bruises coming out fast and furious now. I just feel so down and need to try and shake this feeling as I need  to focus on what's coming up. Donna like you have said I have beaten it once will do it again although I am finding it harder to stay so positive as I know what is coming maybe an advantage in some ways, I just want to get on with it all now and get back to some sort of normality whatever that is.

Donna how are you now as you said you had the hospital the other day and has all your treatment finished now? What treatment did you have last year sorry to ask but just being nosey really ha ha.

Nina how are you and how was Christmas with the family as haven't heard from you must of been good:))))

Well thanks for listening to me really appreciate the support as find it hard sometimes explaining how I feel to family as don't want to burden them with my woes and honestly I don't think they really understand as much as they try, not their fault I know

Well cyber hugs to you all

Little Sis (Linda)

Hi ya girls

Littlesis I hate the thought of all you are going thru! I only know you from cyber space but I know you CAN do this!

What is hAppening to you is what we all dread so you need to know we will be here to support you whenever you need us !

We all live in different places (i live on south coast) so we all have slightly different "medical" experiences but we all have the same emotions!

Do u use face book? A few of us keep in touch with that!

Thank you we had a lovely christmas if the last couple years have taught us anything its live for today ! Both our mums are unwell and my daughters were 18 and 21 ! I am also 50 next thurday! So we decided to go mad and holiday over xmas and new year in the sun in barbados! Very extragavant but quality family time I will never forget!

Please please message ,rant ,shout , blub to us anytime !

Big cyber hug special lady xxx

Nina xxxx

Hi linda , how are you after your op? I feel for you babes and I know you're feeling rubbish but you know you can do this, we worry all the time that this awful disease is going to come back and I know you must feel like why me, you've done nothing wrong Honey, just fecking bad luck. You're strong and you will fight this the way you done four years ago. Its weird cause I haven't got rid of my wig cause in dont want to tempt fate, we know the taxotere makes your bones and muscles sore but at least you're prepared for that and get strong pain killers, any time you want to talk, just come on here and shout at us!, stamp your feet and cry cause you don't deserve this, but you will fight it!

Sorry Donna I didn't realize you had went through cancer again last year, hope youre keeping well?

Lots a love girls.  Colette xxx

Hello girls (and runningdrums)

Sorry I've not been around for a while but i've had loads going on, and it's not all good i'm afraid.

I got flu at the begining of 2013 and couldn't shake it off, the pains in my chest got worse because i had a chest infection too, so i went to my doctors, got my antibiotics and just carried on (as we women do) a week later i went to hospital for a routine appointment at the jasmin center, my consultant said i was  running a high temperature so he wanted to admit me.... so back into hospital I went.... after 4 days of intravenous antibiotics the consultant admitted defeat and said that the left implant was rejecting AGAIN... and he removed it.

The flu left me with a sore throat, then i lost my voice... i just thought i had laryngitus so i kept warm and took throat lozengers, after 3 weeks and still no voice, i went back to the doctor, another week of antibiotics and she eventually refered me to the hospital.... the doctor there, sprayed lidocane up my nose and shoved a camera up my nose and down the back of my throat (bloody nasty) it turns out i have a fluid filled cyst on my voice box and acid burns on my vocal chords (caused by throwing up) so i have been back a couple of times as he keeps and eye on it, apparently, if it calcifies, then I will need a biopsy....I am back again next friday.

I had another implant put in my left breast, a different type, this one has a metal stud in the front and a steel plate on the back, they locate the metal stud with a magnet, marks a small cross in my skin, the consultant then injects the saline directly through to the implant, the steel plate stops the needle from going through to my lungs... but this one cuts out the problem of having a seperate filler port..... the consultant filled the new implant up very slowly over four months.... and this one didn't reject.. WOO HOO.... I am going back on the 11th of february to get a date to remove the expandable implant and put a regular implant in... i will keep you updated.

I am also waiting on the results of an ultrasound on my ovaries womb cervix, bladder and kidneys (ultrasound was yesterday)

So that is pretty much all the bad news at the moment.

On to a lighter note..... I finally got my holiday... One week in Portugal, all inclusive, it was great.... i managed to get bronchitus while i was over there, but that didn't stop me, i was still out everynight with the girls, and wore strapless dresses agin for the first time in 3 years, I had a whale of a time...... BUT i did have to carry a letter from my consultant explaining that i would probably set the alarms off in the security area of the airport due to the steel in my breast implant.... lol.

I am so sorry to hear that some of you have been going through such a hard time.. but i have done with feeling sorry for myself and i will be here from now on as much as i can.

Linda, I was just lucky because i had to have an MRI scan to determine how big the lobular cancer in my right breast was.... and it was the MRI that discovered "something" in my left breast, a quick ultrasound and a biopsy said it was invasive ductal carcenoma in my left breast, .... but if it wasn't for the MRI, it would have  taken another 6 months to a year before the second cancer would have been found.

It's  not good, I understand that, but you will get throught it because you are not ready to leave your family yet... it's scarey cos you know what is coming..... but cancer treatment is a bit like pregnancy, no two are the same... things your body struggled to deal with first time round, might be slightly easier this time..... don't write yourself off yet, you might just surprise yourself this time.

We are here for you

Love to all

Caroline Xxx

Hello Ladies

Hope you are all well sorry I haven't been in touch but have been in hospital again and had a bad few days. I had to go in to have a port put into my chest as unable to have injections in both my arms now, well I have a date for the start of my chemo which is Wednesday 5th Feb and I will be having 6 lots every 3 weeks of the following mix cyclophoiphamide and taxpayers instead of once a week for 18 weeks, my oncologist came to the conclusion that the original treatment he intended was not enough as it now transpires it is a triple negative cancer then after I will have 3 weeks 3 days of Radiotherapy. I am due to go for a bone scan next week also, I have been busy haven't Iol. I am having to go for a genetic test also as my oncologist is concerned that it could be hereditary fingers crossed it isn't as I would not wish this on anyone will let you know how that goes.

I have been getting myself prepared for my treatment been and had my hair cut short, looked on the web for some turban hats etc the only web page I can find is in America, do you know of any in this country? I am also going out this weekend with some friends to cheer myself up what we are doing I am unsure of as they want to surprise me, I am so lucky to have a good group of friends around me and my family have. been fantastic.

Well ladies I will speak to you soon as will be on the steroids from Tuesday what joy not. Can you give me your Facebook details so I can find you on there also. Well take care

Love to you all

Linda

Hi Linda.

Sorry to hear you've been poorly. As if things aren't bad enough. I'm pleased you have your date through for treatment though I know you are dreading it, it's needed. Can't you get head wear from your local hospice? That's where I got mine from. I hope you have a lovely time at the weekend. So glad you have good friends n your families support. Look me up, Leonie Watering. I'm always on fb!

Lots of love to you. Leonie xxx

Hi Linda

You sound ready for the fight! You go girl

Re head gear I got a load of different scarfs mainly from charity shops! I also have very kind friends who got me a couple of lovely ones from beau beau they were lovely ! If I still had them I would lend them to you but I have already lent them out ! I found this address not sure any good but I had quick look and it looks ok.

A few of us are on face book can add me nina diplock. While away some hours!

Good luck we everything we r all just a click away xx

Lots love and cyber hugs xx

Nina

Hi ladies

Here is a link on scarves, bandanas, wigs, all sorts of headwear, Linda.

Wishing you all a relaxing weekend,

Jane

Hi ladies

Here is a link on scarves, bandanas, wigs, all sorts of headwear, Linda.

Wishing you all a relaxing weekend,

Jane

Hi everyone.  Linda - I also start chemo on 5th Feb, same deal...6 cycles in all, 3 weeks apart.  I also have an MRI due this Sat regarding the skeletal structure because of bone mets, only 3 days after chemo so hope I won't be too rough for that.  Mine is also triple neg invasive ductal primary although originally the biopses of the neck mets threw up a weak ER+ so I was on course to have hormone-related treatment after chemo, but I suspect now that will change. I will be having a port implanted before the next chemo session which should help to reduce problems with veins etc.

Anyway, hopefully this will give the C a good kicking - that is the bit that is uncertain, but as I have my sights set on Race for Life in the summer (with my sister who has also had BC) the message cannot be clearer.  Good luck to you on Weds.

Hi Ladies

Glad to hear you are all doing good, well here we go today is steroid day tomorrow we start kicking butt, more focussed now and ready for y fight again. I will be looking for you non dba today so watch out for my request lol. I had a fab weekend with everyone so put me in a good frame of mind. I have now had my bone scan moved to the 11th as to soon after my chemo so will let you know the results as and when I get them.

Boatgirl we can do this together maybe we will be awake on the steroids so we can have lots of chats, what chemo are you having? Like you I would like to do race for life where are you doing it I will either do Hyde Park or Windsor, going to get my sister's and girlfriend's doing it to lol. Well good luck on Wednesday will be thinking of you

Take care all

Linda

Linda - I'm on EC chemo.  Its been marked up as a palliative course so I don't know whether this will hit the cancer for 6 or i'll have to have more later.  Our nearest Race for Life will be in Bedford, and under ordinary circumstances I would be very happy to head down to London but this tricksy illness and the treatment might knacker me too much by then!  Good luck yourself tomorrow. They wouldn't move my date for the MRI scan so I am stuck with Saturday for that.  Happy to chat whenever I'm up, let's keep each other goin' strong.

Hi Boatgirl

Good to hear from you, have been awake most of the night managed to get about 3 hours or so on and of, these steroids do me in it doesn't seem to help even if you try and take them earlier. Are you taking them at all. I know what you mean about the traveling last time I had it the further I went through treatment the worse the tiredness got so like you I will play it by ear. My eldest son is doing a sponsored waxing on his chest and legs down his local for BC so hopefully he will raise some money there, can't wait to have a go lol.

Well hope all goes well for you today left me know how it goes

Take Care

Linda

Linda - well, Day 1 went ok.  This is very detailed but it might contain some things of use to someone else out there.

I realise this is very early days and my first time, so I daresay I will become a bit ground down by it if it starts going badly.  I didn't have to start steroids the day before, but I did try to hydrate myself more yesterday and this morning, and was sipping various drinks through the whole business. I had also been asked to keep as warm as I could so I must have looked ridiculous in my skiing hat (one of the ones with 'ears' and 'plaits'!!) but I thought it would put a smile on the faces of those in the waiting room. 

Nurse had trouble trying to insert a canula in my hand so she arranged for my hand to be in hot water then I had a hottie wheat bag on my arm.  A different nurse then managed to locate it properly.  Don't want such a palaver each time so I will get the implanted port done now. 

My OH was with me and I did quite a bit of thinking about this beforehand and how to involve him. So while all the stuff was going on with the canula I set up the scrabble board and we started to play a game.

I said I would try the cold cap to see if it would enable me to keep my hair.  The routine is that they do not wire me up to anything, they have pre-frozen caps that they change during the course of the time the drugs are administered.  I've got a glamourous photo with me under the cold cap. After testing with a saline solution, next was a pre-med - the anti-sick steroid, before moving onto the E (red) drug - several phials of that delivered through the canula by hand. 

I continued the scrabble and there was a lot of interest in the game (OH very competitive) so we were being asked for regular updates on the scores. It was clear that the encouragement was running in my favour and OH was a sweetie as he did big me up a bit and showed previous scores to one nurse which demonstrated I could hold my own.

I had packed my own food/snacks and a few non-sugary pleasant tasting still water drinks (the ones with a fruit taste added) because I am a diet-controlled diabetic and especially since the diagnosis I have created all my meals from scratch.

I had my main snack while there was the first lot of saline going through.  After the E came the C, this one being introduced using an automatic drip alongside saline.

We took the scrabble quite slowly and we finished the game - OH assured everyone there was no fix and I was the winner.  The atmosphere in the unit was good anyhow but it gave another talking point for people every now and again.

Then the nurse went through my medication which seems to be pretty comprehensive. 

I have had one light meal this evening and haven't felt poorly.  I will be taking an anti-sick drug just before bedtime. I am seriously not expecting tonight or tomorrow to be plain sailing but I am still keeping up fluid intake as advised. 

Weather has been appalling so haven't been out for a walk but I have been doing my domestic bit, finding excuses to walk around the house every hour or so.

Its getting very late so time for the meds and hopefully some sleep.

Hope your day has been ok, and you are also not having too many issues yet.

Hugs

Gill

Linda - how are you getting on? thinking of you, hope you are ok

Hi Boatgirl and Ladies

Glad to hear your treatment went well for you and the way you have written it will help others on what to expect, how are you feeling now and are you on the steroids as well.

Sorry about not being in touch have had a couple of rough days up and down the hospital, the treatment is quite harsh so I am informed, on Wednesday they thought my platelets were low so redone blood test and came back fine so it all went ahead, well by Wednesday evening I couldn't swallow anything except fluids, this continued on so I had to contact my team, I returned to the hospital to be checked out they said all was ok but I had to start eating solid food but I couldn't, my oncologist contacted me to see me again and it turns out I have caught thrush in my mouth going towards my gullet hence the pain when I eat so now on antibiotics for it, I have to go and see him again on Monday if no improvement or Wednesday if I feel ok.I didn't have this side effect last time as I had different chemo and steroids so at least now I know if it happens again or maybe I will ask if I can have a different steroid or what can be done to prevent it happening again, other than that all is good, am going to try and eat something solid today as don't fancy time in hospital lol.

Take Care

Little Sis (Linda)

What is the Chemo you are having sorry brain all over the place already not sure if it's because of everything going on or the Chemo kicking in as have been in bed most of the time as had no energy due to not eating properly but going out for a walk today if the weather improves.

Well will check in later to see if you have seen this keep smiling and cyber hug sent your way.

Hi Littlesis

That all sounds rough but your experience tells you that you have to try to break the vicious circle where, if you are not eating, your energy levels go even further down, and the effort to walk or exercise is even more immense.  Everyone I know who has been through chemo has mentioned this could happen at some point to me.

Just to give you more information about the chemo I am on, and the drugs to manage the side effects.  The two chemo drugs are epirubicin and cyclophoshamide.  An initial dose of anti-sickness medication was given intravenously at the hospital then I was given a goody bag of various drugs to go home with.  These are:

dexamethasone (steroid) first two days only, domperidone (anti-sickness) taken before each meal for first 5 days, cyclizine (anti-sickness) one at night for 5 days, ranitidine (anti-indigestion) one per day for first 5 days,  ondansetron (anti-sickness) one per day taken mid morning for first 3 days, then from day 8 - ciprofloxacin (antibiotic) a one week course, and also fluconazole (anti-fungal) again for a week.

I do not easily succumb to be physically sick but I thought that I shouldn't play fast and loose with the anti-sickness drugs in this situation!  I've been uncharacteristically well-behaved in fact, given that I hate taking pills. I also try to eat within an hour or so of taking the anti-sickness drugs out of some notion that they will be having maximum impact then, and I'm not in the habit of snacking between meals. I do swig drinking water and tea in between to ensure a good fluid intake.

My MRI on Sat went ok, and get the results this coming Wednesday.

I have had some friends drop in today and we have been planning a few treats round the chemo dates, so that will make up a bit for our cancelled holiday. I still feel somewhat anxious about planning anything!

Hope you have had a good day today, and got some fresh air,

Cyber hugs to you as well

Gill