Hi

if you would like to talk about it message me and we can do it privetly

Erika xx

Hi Ladies (and Tony)

I thought it was about time that I checked in...... lots of things have happened to me in the last year.

I have really struggled since losing my mum, and seemed to have more bad days than good........ but that finally seems to have turned around now.

Let me give you the short version

I had reconstructive surgery April 2011 and unfortunately the left side rejected..... I then had to wait 10 months before they did it again..... this time it didn't reject, but the filler port went missing..... after 3 or 4 appointments, the surgeon finally sent me for an ultra sound.... and then they found the filler port, but it had collapsed under the bottom rib, causing the implant to flip over, so when ever i took my sports bra off, my left breast slipped down my chest about 6 inches (looking back now i can see the funny side ) but at the time i didn't.

I was supposed to be going on holiday to Portugal on the 13th of this month but I had to cancel because I had more surgery scheduled for 11th May..... The surgery seemed to go well and I have 2 boobs again, but it now looks like the surgeon has used a bigger implant in the left side than the right (deep joy) So I'm sat writing this with a chest full of stitches.... but I feel whole again for the first time in 20 months...... and the holiday has been re booked for last week in august, so that will give me something to aim for.

I dont know if i have to have more surgery until i go back to the consultant on thursday..... I will keep you all informed.

Another plus is...... I am doing the race for life on the 24th June..... in fact we have a team from my local pub "the corner pin girls" there are 7 of us doing it so far, my daughter, her best mate (landlady's daughter) a young barmaid, my friend and her daughter and our friend Ann, a pensioner who is a regular in the pub...... we have raised quite a lot of money already................... All the youngsters are jogging, and Ann got a bit upset because she said she was going to walk it..... I told her i was walking it too, so we would walk together...... to which Ann said "I will probably come last"..... so i just smiled and said "Ann, you're a pensioner and i will be a month out of surgery, as long as we finish, that's all that matters"...... so that is something else to look forward to.

I think I have rambled on enough now..... I am glad to see so many people doing so well

Love to all

Caz Xxx

Hi Kaleah

Sorry to read what you are going through and we are all here to help each other. How are things going for you have you had your second operation yet? Like you I have to go back in tomorrow as they need to take some more of the mussel as margins not good, let me tell you I am petrified to, I try and think to myself all is fine unsure if I am trying to convince myself or my family and friends.

My sleeping has been up and down what about you hope it has got better or have you spoken to your team to help you. Well keep in touch and let us know how you are doing

Take Care

Little Sis (Linda)

Hiya hun

I'm sorry I haven't replied sooner. I've had some problems over Christmas I'm at the hospital today.  Here anytime you want a chat about anything.

Xxx

Hi Bin job I

No problems knew you would get in touch soon we all have other things going on are you ok give me a shout when you get back from the hospital hope all goes well and then we can have a chat so much to talk about sending a cyber hug

Little Sis

Hello All

Well just thought I would catch up with you all going back in hospital today so hopefully they will do what needs to be done and I will be home tomorrow, must admit not looking forward to it all again just want to be normal again whatever that is.

This disease is just so nasty I hate it why do we need to suffer like this when there is so much more things going on in the world it is all so mixed up, I hate it

Sorry all but I have had enough already

Linda

I know how you feel hun. Yesterday wasn't the best of days. But we'll all support each other and we'll gwt through the bad days.

Sending you a big cyber hug thinking of you x

Hi Bon Jovi

How are you how did you get on at the hospital, Leonie was saying you went through it again last year, I have had enough of this disease not only is it enough we go through it the once, I was so sorry to hear of your fight again.

Well I came out of hospital again yesterday after my second operation I feel so down today and chemo hasn't even started yet, I have to go back Wednesday to see my Surgeon then of to the oncologist week after there is talk that I will have 18 weeks of chemo once a week, not looking forward to it it maybe from the taxatier group by what I remember that makes your mussels ache and hurt will let you know for definite when I find out.

Sorry to ask my dear friend but have you any advice on what to expect second time around I don't mean this how it sounds, did you find it harder etc, I am so angry I thought I had fought the fight of my life already but here I go again like yourself. I find myself asking why me again what have I done so wrong in my life to warrant this. I am of to have my hair cut this week to get ready for the Chemo as don't want the shock I had last time just don't know what else to do I'm just so angry and feel so down in myself and finding it hard to shake of.

Well hope you are all well and sorry for the rant but so fed up

Little Sis (Linda)

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Hiya hun

Don't apologise for ranting we all need to sometimes.  How are you feeling today?

I know how you feel because I felt exactly the same way. Tbh second time around is easier and harder in equal measures.  Easier as in you know what to expect but harder for the same reason.  I got through it by constantly telling myself I've beaten this before I can do it again. I heard these words recently and they are so true. Don't look too far into the future and take each day one step at a time. You've beaten this before hun and you can do it again. As always we've got each others support and someone to listen and understand when we think no one else does. 

Sending you a cyber hug

Donna xx

Hi girls

Just wanted you alll to know thinking of you and sending massive cyber hugs to see you thru this ! Xxxx

Lots of love nina xxxxx

Hi Ladies

So good to hear from you thought you had all forgotten about me lol only joking.

Yesterday was a bad day my mind was all over the place needed time out from everyone started crying from morning to night which is so unlike me, not sure if it is because they have stopped my tamoxifen or everything racing round my head probably both. I was also very sore from the second surgery bruises coming out fast and furious now. I just feel so down and need to try and shake this feeling as I need  to focus on what's coming up. Donna like you have said I have beaten it once will do it again although I am finding it harder to stay so positive as I know what is coming maybe an advantage in some ways, I just want to get on with it all now and get back to some sort of normality whatever that is.

Donna how are you now as you said you had the hospital the other day and has all your treatment finished now? What treatment did you have last year sorry to ask but just being nosey really ha ha.

Nina how are you and how was Christmas with the family as haven't heard from you must of been good:))))

Well thanks for listening to me really appreciate the support as find it hard sometimes explaining how I feel to family as don't want to burden them with my woes and honestly I don't think they really understand as much as they try, not their fault I know

Well cyber hugs to you all

Little Sis (Linda)

Hi ya girls

Littlesis I hate the thought of all you are going thru! I only know you from cyber space but I know you CAN do this!

What is hAppening to you is what we all dread so you need to know we will be here to support you whenever you need us !

We all live in different places (i live on south coast) so we all have slightly different "medical" experiences but we all have the same emotions!

Do u use face book? A few of us keep in touch with that!

Thank you we had a lovely christmas if the last couple years have taught us anything its live for today ! Both our mums are unwell and my daughters were 18 and 21 ! I am also 50 next thurday! So we decided to go mad and holiday over xmas and new year in the sun in barbados! Very extragavant but quality family time I will never forget!

Please please message ,rant ,shout , blub to us anytime !

Big cyber hug special lady xxx

Nina xxxx

Hi ya girls

Littlesis I hate the thought of all you are going thru! I only know you from cyber space but I know you CAN do this!

What is hAppening to you is what we all dread so you need to know we will be here to support you whenever you need us !

We all live in different places (i live on south coast) so we all have slightly different "medical" experiences but we all have the same emotions!

Do u use face book? A few of us keep in touch with that!

Thank you we had a lovely christmas if the last couple years have taught us anything its live for today ! Both our mums are unwell and my daughters were 18 and 21 ! I am also 50 next thurday! So we decided to go mad and holiday over xmas and new year in the sun in barbados! Very extragavant but quality family time I will never forget!

Please please message ,rant ,shout , blub to us anytime !

Big cyber hug special lady xxx

Nina xxxx