I hate my stoma bag

I've recently been told they can't reverse my stoma bag.,I'm devastated as I really hate having it. Many a time I have woken up covered in my own ****, it's degrading. I was standing in a line waiting to go into a shop when I noticed **** all down my trousers and my shoes, I was mortified. My wife has left me and I'm now apprehensive about meeting new people and how they will react to me having a bag.