I can’t believe my daughter is gone forever.

My precious 27 year old daughter passed away 15 days ago. She had a very aggressive form of adenocarcina which started in the colon and spread to her lungs and spine. We tried everything to find a way to slow or stop this monster. She fought so hard and suffered horribly. Due to what the hospice nurses said was a metabolic disorder her body would not absorb pain medication properly. Her breathing at the end was exceptionally labored. I held her hand to my face and told her how much i loved her. Now i feel so anxious, afraid and anguished that she is gone forever. She was kind and loving to all and brought shear joy to my life. How do i go on? I have one other adult child who is very different from me and is not supportive of me. I am a widow of 9 years now as well.

Kelley

Parents
  • Hello

     

    Firstly, I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter. No words can make this better for you 

    This disease does not discriminate and is a monster. Your daughter sounds wonderful and no mother should go through watching their child die - I’m sorry.

    It is still so recent and must be so hard for you - I know I’m a stranger but I am sending sympathy to you. 

     

    I lost my my brother to cancer nearly 2 years ago, to watch him die was horrendous and to watch my mother lose her son was just as bad. I now have to watch my mother battle this cruel disease as she has stage 4 kidney cancer which has gone to her lungs and bones - life is so so so unfair. I’m losing my mum and my heart is breaking 

    I hope we can help each other somehow through this awful time

     

  • Rebecca, thank You for your kind words. It breaks my heart to hear of what you are going through now. And what you’re  Beautiful mother is suffering now. That disease is the devil reincarnate. There is no other way to explain it. The treatments are enough to kill anyone. And many go through that and don’t survive anyway just like my Caroline  and your beloved brother. Not only is life unfair it is often profoundly terrible. I sometimes have trouble finding the good compared to the bad. When I hear lovely people such as yourself I am encouraged. I will keep your family in my prayers and pray for the best.

  • Hey there, 

    I read your post and just wanted to send you some warm hugs and love. I have daughters and cannot imagine how you feel but I hope you feel the warmth of my message. 

    Xxxxxx

Reply Children
  • Thank you so much for your kind and thoughtful words Migu. My Caroline has been in heaven for one year, 14 days. I don’t miss her any less than before. I’ve don’t believe the hole in my heart will ever heal. I will just adapt to living with it. I have absolutely no choice other than ending my life which as a Christian I will not do. I ask people to love their families, mend their fences, and put people over work if possible. My husband was killed by a drunk driver 10 years ago age 51, and my Mom died from cancer also 6 months after Caroline last July 14th. You don’t realize how fast and frequent catastrophic event ms can occur. God bless you