I can’t believe my daughter is gone forever.

My precious 27 year old daughter passed away 15 days ago. She had a very aggressive form of adenocarcina which started in the colon and spread to her lungs and spine. We tried everything to find a way to slow or stop this monster. She fought so hard and suffered horribly. Due to what the hospice nurses said was a metabolic disorder her body would not absorb pain medication properly. Her breathing at the end was exceptionally labored. I held her hand to my face and told her how much i loved her. Now i feel so anxious, afraid and anguished that she is gone forever. She was kind and loving to all and brought shear joy to my life. How do i go on? I have one other adult child who is very different from me and is not supportive of me. I am a widow of 9 years now as well.

Kelley

Parents
  • wow I’m so so sorry darling that you have had to watch your own baby go through this..I seen the exact same thing happen to my uncle who was 38 when he passed..we couldn’t physically touch him when it became terminal due to the slightest tough caused him excruciating pain..I so feel for you and no words can change it but what I will say darling is it gets easier as time goes on..never ever get over it but gets easier I promise..people say atleast there not in pain anymore but doesn’t make any difference does it..keep your chin up and soldier on..she knew you loved her dearly and will be looking down on you..always remember the good times..I’m thinking of you and remember that you was always there with her and that she knew you loved her dearly.. ️

  • Oh thank you Dave for your kind words! It does help to remember she knew i loved her to the moon and back. You are correct! I told her multiple times a day that i loved her. She knew that I loved and fought fiercely for her. I rarely left her side the two weeks in hospice.I moved into her home prior to that. I wonder if I had taken her to a specialist in Europe if we could have found a treatment that might have saved her. Im simply gutted with sadness and depression.

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  • Oh thank you Dave for your kind words! It does help to remember she knew i loved her to the moon and back. You are correct! I told her multiple times a day that i loved her. She knew that I loved and fought fiercely for her. I rarely left her side the two weeks in hospice.I moved into her home prior to that. I wonder if I had taken her to a specialist in Europe if we could have found a treatment that might have saved her. Im simply gutted with sadness and depression.

Children
  • and she knew it..always think that way and it will ease your suffering..you did everything you could physically and mentally do as a parent..there’s no more you could of done but be by her side and comforting her like you did..listen cancer is a serious serious illness..taking her abroad personally I think would of made her suffer more with travelling and more than likely still not getting it cured..once it spreads to organs etc  it’s pretty much game over..your daughter will be looking down more than likely saying mum stop beating yaself up you was here for me and that she so needed that and for you to now try and be happy..Stay strong,carry on have the mindset that your living for your daughter too