I know exactly how you feel. I lost my mum last Wednesday morning and at the minute I couldn't care less about the coronavirus. My mum was my best friend, we lived together, holidayed together and even finished each other's sentences. We had lots of little jokes that nobody else understood and I can't believe I will never see or talk to her again in this life. Mum was only diagnosed with secondary breast cancer which had spread to her lungs in January. We knew she couldn't be cured but her oncologist was optimistic about extending her life with low dose chemo and herceptin. After just 2 weeks treatment mum developed a nasty chest infection and was taken into hospital. For 2 weeks the doctors were pleased with how the antibiotics were working but then they couldn't get her oxygen levels to stay up by themselves. We knew then it was only a matter of time but we thought weeks not days. In the end mum got home on Monday evening and passed away in the early hours of Wednesday morning. I'm so angry that she wanted home for the whole 3 weeks she was in hospital and didn't even get the chance to enjoy it for a few days. I am worried about the rest of my family but to be quite honest I don't think I'd care if I contracted coronavirus. And yes I know that is an awful thing to say while people are fighting for their lives but it's the truth. I'm only 51 but the only future I can see is me waiting to join her and I know that's not what she wanted for me but I can't help it. 

So sorry to hear about your mum:(. You must be devastated. I think your feelings at the moment are totally natural - my way of dealing with it is to make myself behave as if I care whether I get the coronavirus even though it's actually very hard to bother about it. So I do all the stuff I'm meant to in the the hope that one day I will be glad I did. I'm trying to look at it that my friend wanted to live and so I owe it to her to not throw my life away. It feels like something I can still do for her. Sending you strength, heart and best wishes x

So sorry to hear about your mum:(. You must be devastated. I think your feelings at the moment are totally natural - my way of dealing with it is to make myself behave as if I care whether I get the coronavirus even though it's actually very hard to bother about it. So I do all the stuff I'm meant to in the the hope that one day I will be glad I did. I'm trying to look at it that my friend wanted to live and so I owe it to her to not throw my life away. It feels like something I can still do for her. Sending you strength, heart and best wishes x