Hiya..

I also lost my Dad to pancreatic cancer- awful isnt it. How did you find the anniversary of her passing? I dread so many days throughout the first year- birthdays, fathers day etc. 

Hope youre doing okay x

Hi Sarah,

wow it really does sound as though we are feeling the same right now. Im sorry for the loss of your Dad. of course, I completely get how heartbroken you feel- Im exactly the same. Its so devestating isnt it. I know we should feel like we had such amazing Dads for the time we did, but I dont feel like it was long enough. I feel like we had so many memories left to make- He was off sick when he turned 65 so never got to enjoy retirement- I get so angry thinking he worked from when he was a teenager to never enjoy those years of not working.. 

Completely agree- no one understands unless theyve experience the loss that we have.

Sending much love xxx

Hello Katie

I think everyone is different when it comes to grief.....I visit Mums grave regulary back in Derbyshire and stay at Mums cottage but my sister finds it too painful. Mum's sister has still not been able to put Mum's photograph up in her house.  I feel close to Mum when I am at the grave and back in Derbyshire.  I live in the South with my husband. On Mums anniversary we did flowers and cards for the grave and for her Birthday and Mothers Day also.  Its been incredibly difficult year for me...I am not the same happy confident person I used to be but gradually I am hoping that I can overcome this.  I have lots of photos of Mum everywhere and I talk to Mum daily  I know its not the same for everyone but it helps me and this forum has been very comforting.  The death of a parent changes you forever but in a positive way eventually!

Take care 

My dad died on August I am so lost I took care of him for years as he had dementia I don't know what to do with me now am sad.crying.loads just lost

How are you doing today Logam7? I feel very much for you. Losing my mum I also felt like I lost the person I was before and am having restart my life in a way I don't want. What an incredible gift you gave to your dad caring for him - it sounds as though you were his world. Please be very kind and gentle to yourself if you can. Sending a hug x

Hi, I've just read your post and my heart goes out to you as I no how your feeling, I lost my dad in October 2019, He was my world my best friend, I miss my dad so much, I think of him everyday and wishing I could see him but I try to think that he's at peace but it doesn't make it any easier,  It's true what they say, Having are parents around is the best and we're so lucky but no one can learn us how to  live without them and it's so upsetting and heartbreaking having to do that 

Hi, I am struggling to get on with life without my dear Dad.I feel like life is not worth living without him, I hate my job which is v stressful, my partner has probably had enough of my depression, I feel unattractive and a burden as I feel like a shell of the person I was when we met. I dont want to smile anymore. He was supportive throughout the illness and my Dad's decline but now I couldn't blame him for being sick of it all.Muy Mum is old and on her own and I struggle to help her and have time for my partner and he down a fulltime job. We got together just as my Dad was diagnosed with bowel cancer  after suffering from Colitis and a routine colonoscopy. The year of him dying was torture and we struggled to make my parents see they needed outside help. My brother married the Spri g before my Dad died in the Autumn 2018. My Dad struggled to make it to the wedding but did....as a very I'll sick bit proud father. My Mum acted badly, shunning GP help and refusing to talk about death. No my relationship is struggling, I feel like my Dad died without knowing my brother's marriage was a sham, he only saw the good...my bother and in law have barely seen my Mum and acted badly towards her and it is all leaving me feeling emotionally overloaded, stressed, unable to cope and joyless at life. I feel hopeless and like there is no-one left to trust.My Dad was my everything...I miss him so much, he was loving, patient, kind and unfailingly supportive.Life is empty without him.

Hi

I'm very sorry for your loss. 

My dad was my hero, fireman, seemed indestructible. He died of cancer when he was just 49. I feel angry, sad, depressed, some days I'm okay and I dont really think about it at all. Hes missed the birth and lives of both of his grandchildren, that hurts. 

The thing is he died 25 years ago. The pain doesn't go, you learn to live with it, you keep going because that is what you have to do. 

A nurse in his hospice told me this the day after he died when I went to pick up his things. 

I hope I've helped.

Neil

May god give you strength and may you be blessed in everything you do. Xx