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Nearly 8 weeks since mum died

Linda63
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Why on a beautiful sunny day does it feel worse that mum is not here. I've had some ok days with no tears but then you feel that you go backwards and I still can't believe that she's not here. When I was sitting at the computer yesterday, one of the lights flickered, I was on this site at the time, maybe it was mum saying, spending too much time on the laptop!

My dad says he's coping ok and he keeps himself busy in the garden and we went shopping together yesterday; I think the reason it's so hard to bear is also seeing him alone.

I carry mum's order of service with me at work, we had a slideshow of memories and it includes some of the photo's, she looked so beautiful, at every age, everyone says what a beauty she was, but they must also think I'm crazy carrying it around.

Not really sure why I'm posting today, I just feel so sad and miss my mum so much and now can't stop the tears, sorry I know I should be better but sometimes its just hard. 

 

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    Hello Linda.  I think it seems worse on a sunny day because it appears that the rest of the world are out enjoying themselves (some of them probably have issues of their own but of course you don't know who they are!)  I expect your dad is just taking things one day at a time which is really the only thing to do in these early days.  You probably feel it should be pouring with rain to match your mood.  Please do post as often as you like; it may help you just to connect to the rest of the world.   It is many years since my mum (and my dad a few years later) died but I still have kept bits and pieces for no other reason than it belonged to them.  You do whatever feels right for you.  Bless you.  Annie

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    Thank you Annie, it has helped to read your reply and others who have been kind enough to post, especially when the grief is still raw.

    You have posted some many times, taken the time to help and understand what so many people have been going through, maybe if we were all as kind and considerate, the world might be a better place.

    Thank you again x

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    Thank you Annie, it has helped to read your reply and others who have been kind enough to post, especially when the grief is still raw.

    You have posted some many times, taken the time to help and understand what so many people have been going through, maybe if we were all as kind and considerate, the world might be a better place.

    Thank you again x

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