Why on a beautiful sunny day does it feel worse that mum is not here. I've had some ok days with no tears but then you feel that you go backwards and I still can't believe that she's not here. When I was sitting at the computer yesterday, one of the lights flickered, I was on this site at the time, maybe it was mum saying, spending too much time on the laptop!
My dad says he's coping ok and he keeps himself busy in the garden and we went shopping together yesterday; I think the reason it's so hard to bear is also seeing him alone.
I carry mum's order of service with me at work, we had a slideshow of memories and it includes some of the photo's, she looked so beautiful, at every age, everyone says what a beauty she was, but they must also think I'm crazy carrying it around.
Not really sure why I'm posting today, I just feel so sad and miss my mum so much and now can't stop the tears, sorry I know I should be better but sometimes its just hard.
