Hi Linda, i lost my gorgeous mum yesterday morning at 3.40am and i dont know how i am going to continue with my life. I am 48/single/no children/no brothers or sisters. I have been living and caring for my mum since her diagnosis in March in my childhood family home. She has a labrador called Charlie and i have a Shih tzu called Louie and we are all together the 3 of us today just wandering around the house. The pain is unbearable and i have not stopped crying hardly since she went.......god only knows what i will do. I keep picking up her clothes and smelling them and i know it is so unhealthy but cant help myself....where are you in the UK? Do you have a family of your own? Sending you a heartfelt hug from someone who is a stranger but connected to you emotionally today.xxx

Hi Alibags, thank you for your reply, kind of you to do so when you must be in shock, I am so very sorry for your loss. I did the same with mums cardigan, last one she wore, you just want to do anything to be close to them again, I understand.

The tears are uncontrollable, the pain is unbearable, whatever you feel is personal to you and nobody can at this stage can say any words to stop the pain. Everyone on this forum will have some understanding of how you feel right now, I am around 8 weeks ahead of you in my journey and it is good days and bad, I can only say that the uncontrollable crying will become less, I found Lavender tablets helped with the panic attacks and anxiety and I know I lost weight as completly lost my appetite, so I will say now, try and eat regular meals and I found walking helped, just to be outside seemed better, guess looking after Charlie and Louie  will help.

Do you have any relatives close by at all, maybe aunts or uncles? I am married and have family, we're all around Gloucestershire, close by to each other.

We're all strangers on this forum, but people here will support each other, keep posting and please take care of yourself, you're an amazing person to have looked after your mum. 

You're in my thoughts and prayers at this difficult time.

x

Hi Alibags, thank you for your reply, kind of you to do so when you must be in shock, I am so very sorry for your loss. I did the same with mums cardigan, last one she wore, you just want to do anything to be close to them again, I understand.

The tears are uncontrollable, the pain is unbearable, whatever you feel is personal to you and nobody can at this stage can say any words to stop the pain. Everyone on this forum will have some understanding of how you feel right now, I am around 8 weeks ahead of you in my journey and it is good days and bad, I can only say that the uncontrollable crying will become less, I found Lavender tablets helped with the panic attacks and anxiety and I know I lost weight as completly lost my appetite, so I will say now, try and eat regular meals and I found walking helped, just to be outside seemed better, guess looking after Charlie and Louie  will help.

Do you have any relatives close by at all, maybe aunts or uncles? I am married and have family, we're all around Gloucestershire, close by to each other.

We're all strangers on this forum, but people here will support each other, keep posting and please take care of yourself, you're an amazing person to have looked after your mum. 

You're in my thoughts and prayers at this difficult time.

x