just lost husband to stage 4 cancer

hello, everyone, I am from New York and came across this website that looks so helpful, on August 18th the love of my life passed away from stage 4 lung cancer that had spread to his liver, bones, and brain. This is the most painful thing I have ever gone through in my life, I feel so half empty without him. The crazy thing about it is we found out about cancer on August 1st by the 18th he passed away. Everything was such a shock and still is, it's killing me inside not having him here with me especially at night. I look at our four children and the thought that he won't be around for their growing up is unbearable. You know the symptoms did not start to show until July when he started complaining of his back, right shoulder, and arm, he went into the hospital on July 31st and on Aug 1st we found out about cancer, I thought he had months to a year, not two weeks can anyone else who has gone through this with a loved one please tell me how they deal and cope with this because I feel like I am going into depression I cry every day, I miss and love him so much we were together 16 years, I will never have another man like him  

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  • Shakia,

    I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, especially as it came as such a shock. I'm 19 and my dad passed away from cancer just before my 16th birthday. Nothing will ever feel like the loss of a dad, but my mum works to keep my dad an active part of our lives. Your children won't grow up without a dad, he is looking over them and you can keep him alive in your words and memories. I truly believe your husband is looking over your children and you.

    Speaking as someone who lost their father, things get better. My bond with my mum is inseperable. The pain you feel now won't last forever, there will be good days and bad days but your children and friends will always be there for you as a support. It's okay not to be okay.

    Your husband is always with you, I'm sure you can see him when you look at your children. 

    Grief is the final act of love. Embrace your feelings and we are here to talk if you need someone to talk to. Sending big hugs and thoughts at this difficult time.

    Jodie x

     

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  • Shakia,

    I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, especially as it came as such a shock. I'm 19 and my dad passed away from cancer just before my 16th birthday. Nothing will ever feel like the loss of a dad, but my mum works to keep my dad an active part of our lives. Your children won't grow up without a dad, he is looking over them and you can keep him alive in your words and memories. I truly believe your husband is looking over your children and you.

    Speaking as someone who lost their father, things get better. My bond with my mum is inseperable. The pain you feel now won't last forever, there will be good days and bad days but your children and friends will always be there for you as a support. It's okay not to be okay.

    Your husband is always with you, I'm sure you can see him when you look at your children. 

    Grief is the final act of love. Embrace your feelings and we are here to talk if you need someone to talk to. Sending big hugs and thoughts at this difficult time.

    Jodie x

     

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