just lost husband to stage 4 cancer

hello, everyone, I am from New York and came across this website that looks so helpful, on August 18th the love of my life passed away from stage 4 lung cancer that had spread to his liver, bones, and brain. This is the most painful thing I have ever gone through in my life, I feel so half empty without him. The crazy thing about it is we found out about cancer on August 1st by the 18th he passed away. Everything was such a shock and still is, it's killing me inside not having him here with me especially at night. I look at our four children and the thought that he won't be around for their growing up is unbearable. You know the symptoms did not start to show until July when he started complaining of his back, right shoulder, and arm, he went into the hospital on July 31st and on Aug 1st we found out about cancer, I thought he had months to a year, not two weeks can anyone else who has gone through this with a loved one please tell me how they deal and cope with this because I feel like I am going into depression I cry every day, I miss and love him so much we were together 16 years, I will never have another man like him  

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  • I’m so sorry for your loss Shakia and I know exactly what you’re going through !

    My Husband was diagnosed with Stage 4 Lymphoma 13 weeks ago after having no prior symptoms.

    it had spread throughout his whole body and has just finished 4th round of chemo . The Doctors have just told me that the chemo hasn’t worked and that they are stopping treatment ! They now are just trying to make him as comfortable as possible with morphine !

    The problem is my Husband hasn’t been told they’re stopping his treatment so I’m having to live with that guilt whilst sitting with him every day !

    i am so scared as we don’t have any children and I’m worried how I am going to cope on my own without him!

    I’m only 33 years of age and he’s only 40, been together 10 years and married for 4.

    Our lives hadn’t even started yet . X 

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  • I’m so sorry for your loss Shakia and I know exactly what you’re going through !

    My Husband was diagnosed with Stage 4 Lymphoma 13 weeks ago after having no prior symptoms.

    it had spread throughout his whole body and has just finished 4th round of chemo . The Doctors have just told me that the chemo hasn’t worked and that they are stopping treatment ! They now are just trying to make him as comfortable as possible with morphine !

    The problem is my Husband hasn’t been told they’re stopping his treatment so I’m having to live with that guilt whilst sitting with him every day !

    i am so scared as we don’t have any children and I’m worried how I am going to cope on my own without him!

    I’m only 33 years of age and he’s only 40, been together 10 years and married for 4.

    Our lives hadn’t even started yet . X 

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