Hello Shakia6. I am in the UK...You have been through exactly what I have.... my husband was fit and healthy until last May when he complained of pain in his lower back and under his right shoulder. He had physio for a while and the pain went away temporarily but returned. He went for tests and was found to have cancer in his lung, liver and bones. We were given a prognosis of months rather than years and he had radiotherapy on his back. He then moved to the local hospice for pain management prior to coming home, but deteriorated so quickly- the cancer started spreading to his brain- that he died three weeks later on 25th July. Like you I am devastated. He was the love of my life, best friend and creative partner. We had been married for 46 years and had recently moved to be on the coast and enjoy our retirement. I feel so lost and alone... like you, I don’t want to be on my own but can’t ever imagine finding someone else. I am taking antidepressants and having counselling. I see by the dates of your post that it is a while back so you may now have started to come to terms with it all. If you have let me know how you are coping... We didn’t have children, and I even had to rehome our pet cat because I was so unwell after he died and could not cope. I am told it gets easier with time, but time seems to have stood still since he died and I still relive those terrible last days.

Hello Shakia6. I am in the UK...You have been through exactly what I have.... my husband was fit and healthy until last May when he complained of pain in his lower back and under his right shoulder. He had physio for a while and the pain went away temporarily but returned. He went for tests and was found to have cancer in his lung, liver and bones. We were given a prognosis of months rather than years and he had radiotherapy on his back. He then moved to the local hospice for pain management prior to coming home, but deteriorated so quickly- the cancer started spreading to his brain- that he died three weeks later on 25th July. Like you I am devastated. He was the love of my life, best friend and creative partner. We had been married for 46 years and had recently moved to be on the coast and enjoy our retirement. I feel so lost and alone... like you, I don’t want to be on my own but can’t ever imagine finding someone else. I am taking antidepressants and having counselling. I see by the dates of your post that it is a while back so you may now have started to come to terms with it all. If you have let me know how you are coping... We didn’t have children, and I even had to rehome our pet cat because I was so unwell after he died and could not cope. I am told it gets easier with time, but time seems to have stood still since he died and I still relive those terrible last days.