Lost Mum and now don't know how to carry on

Hi,

My brave beautiful Mum lost her life this morning to covid infection/lung cancer and I just can't accept she has gone. I know she is gone but I can't accept how I will continue without her. We worked together for 10 years and lived together (I was her carer for last few years) for 7 years with my partner. We were best friends and Mother/daughter all rolled into one. We stayed with her the last 16 hours of her life in hospital and I talked to her in her final breaths, telling her how much I loved her, how proud I was, how blessed I was. She had been in hospital since Tuesday and Friday they were pleased her infection levels had decreased, mentioning her possibly coming home this week then her covid levels raised again and her condition worsened so fast. It was awful seeing what she went through in the last day of her life and she knew she was dying but I never actually said it to her, I still believed for a miracle. Now I am left in a home with no Mum, my life. How do I carry on?

Jane

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  • Also, I read a bit of your profile and that you took your mum to India which is amazing, I did similar with my mum - took all over Spain including her ancestral hometown in Extremadura and I took her to Malaysia as well to Penang - I have all those amazing memories and those good times I can think back on and you will have the same as well. It's hurting now (it's hurting for me too...) but your mum saw places and did things and that counts in the end. There are people I know who get to be old and have never left the estate and been nowhere - fine if that's what they want but your mum didn't do that and she lived a life well lived and if I can see in the picture - a happy one.

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  • Also, I read a bit of your profile and that you took your mum to India which is amazing, I did similar with my mum - took all over Spain including her ancestral hometown in Extremadura and I took her to Malaysia as well to Penang - I have all those amazing memories and those good times I can think back on and you will have the same as well. It's hurting now (it's hurting for me too...) but your mum saw places and did things and that counts in the end. There are people I know who get to be old and have never left the estate and been nowhere - fine if that's what they want but your mum didn't do that and she lived a life well lived and if I can see in the picture - a happy one.

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