DTE, I know exactly where you are coming from- by fluke (ultrasound for something else at start of June) got picked up that I'd got testicular cancer, had testicle removed 2 weeks later and CT scan giving me the all clear a couple of weeks after. So effectively had gone from fine to "OMG I'm going to die" (ah come on most of us react like that right?), to back to normal in a month. I've found it difficult to be open with people about it because it doesn't feel like I've had "real" cancer, if that makes sense? Don't get me wrong hugely grateful that I've got incredibly lucky and not had the struggles and challenges that unfortunately far too many suffer from but it has left me feeling a bit weird and like a fraud about the whole thing. I think in someways the fact that it was picked up by random chance has kind of exacerbated the feeling of surrealism and I suppose it's almost like the survivors guilt phenomenon with a feeling that it's not "real" as relatively speaking haven't suffered. I can only describe it as strange, and in someways quite difficult go process as it's almost a did that really just happen? 

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That is exactly how I feel and to make me feel worse someone I know was diagnosed with the same thing and there is nothing they can do for her she's terminal.

I feel very lucky that I dodge the bullet so to speak but also the why did I get off so lightly when this girl I know who's only in her 20's has it so bad as you said survivers guilt.

Hi 

That is exactly how I feel and to make me feel worse someone I know was diagnosed with the same thing and there is nothing they can do for her she's terminal.

I feel very lucky that I dodge the bullet so to speak but also the why did I get off so lightly when this girl I know who's only in her 20's has it so bad as you said survivers guilt.