Dear KGay516

I am so sorry to read of the loss of your daughter.  This is the most awful thing that can happen to a mother and I feel your pain.  It is at this time you need support from family and friends and you do not seem to be getting this.  There are people in the Maggie centres who will speak to you, Clan centres as well as this site and the Macmillan one.  It is difficult to learn to live this new life without your child and I do not know if we can ever do this.  It is just over a year since my 35 year old son died from bowel cancer with liver mets and to be truthful I still cannot accept that I shall never see him again, obviously I know that I will not but it hits you like a ton bricks and there are no rules to help you with this.  Each of us is an individual and this most of awful of events is individual to each of us.  I hope that you can find some comfort from friends and that your other child and you can find a path of communication.  I dont think there is anything that i can write that will truly help you but i send you lovexx

leslie

Hello  Kellie.

So sad & sorry to hear about the loss of your daughter..This is my first attempt to comment outside the introduction page..I share a similar journey living each day with Esophageal Cancer, since diagnosed as terminal in July last year...My tumour had shrunk slightly or remained stable after Radiation Therapy. I was blessed with a ''Honeymoon'' period, where things improved a lot but the monster is now back more aggressive than ever.

I am under Palliative Home Care & Pain and Sleepless Nights, has been my biggst challenge. It was just over the last 3 days that the nursing staff felt that I was not absorbing my Oral Morphine Medication and was put on liquid vials injected via a ''Butterfly Clip'' in my arm..This makes a big difference but with the combination of COPD pain it is still driving me to the edge of insanity.

I too have no close family except one sister & a 28 year old daughter with Grand Mal Epilepsy, who is in trial treatment with Canabbis Patches & it has been very successful, even though it is Synthetic Based..Med.MJ has been legalised in our State but it is near impossible to get any doctor to provide a presciption..It would be somewhat helpful with the pain.

Not sure what else I can say at such a sad time in your life but leave you with this song....

www.youtube.com/watch

Peter xxx

Hello  Kellie.

So sad & sorry to hear about the loss of your daughter..This is my first attempt to comment outside the introduction page..I share a similar journey living each day with Esophageal Cancer, since diagnosed as terminal in July last year...My tumour had shrunk slightly or remained stable after Radiation Therapy. I was blessed with a ''Honeymoon'' period, where things improved a lot but the monster is now back more aggressive than ever.

I am under Palliative Home Care & Pain and Sleepless Nights, has been my biggst challenge. It was just over the last 3 days that the nursing staff felt that I was not absorbing my Oral Morphine Medication and was put on liquid vials injected via a ''Butterfly Clip'' in my arm..This makes a big difference but with the combination of COPD pain it is still driving me to the edge of insanity.

I too have no close family except one sister & a 28 year old daughter with Grand Mal Epilepsy, who is in trial treatment with Canabbis Patches & it has been very successful, even though it is Synthetic Based..Med.MJ has been legalised in our State but it is near impossible to get any doctor to provide a presciption..It would be somewhat helpful with the pain.

Not sure what else I can say at such a sad time in your life but leave you with this song....

www.youtube.com/watch

Peter xxx

Peter,

I pray you are still with us. I reread your beautiful response and wonder how much the human spirit must endure. I will pray for you.

Kelley