Hello KGay516.  I am so sorry that this has happened to you.  Nobody expects to have to see their children die but to also having had to watch her suffer as she did must have been torture for you.   And you must now feel you have no family with whom to share your pain.  Your feelings are entirely understandable.  Please just take one day at a time.  This is an awful time for you and I and others have found it best just to take things in small chunks and not look too far ahead after losing a loved one.

Was your other daughter close to her sister?  If so, is there no chance of the two of you trying to help each other at this time?  I admit it does sound as you have written off this relationship but she is the one person who may be feeling similar pain to yourself.

If this is not possible you need to find others with whom to talk about what you are going through.  Keep talking to us by all means but you may find it helpful to talk with Cruse Bereavement Care (Freefone 0808 808 1677).  I hope you also have friends who care for you.

When my mum died I put a photo in place of her being physically with me.  I talked to her, put a photo of my son - who was born after she died - next to her photos, wrote notes to her and burned them on a candle so they might float up to her.  You should do anything that helps you.

I am so sorry.

Hello KGay516.  I am so sorry that this has happened to you.  Nobody expects to have to see their children die but to also having had to watch her suffer as she did must have been torture for you.   And you must now feel you have no family with whom to share your pain.  Your feelings are entirely understandable.  Please just take one day at a time.  This is an awful time for you and I and others have found it best just to take things in small chunks and not look too far ahead after losing a loved one.

Was your other daughter close to her sister?  If so, is there no chance of the two of you trying to help each other at this time?  I admit it does sound as you have written off this relationship but she is the one person who may be feeling similar pain to yourself.

If this is not possible you need to find others with whom to talk about what you are going through.  Keep talking to us by all means but you may find it helpful to talk with Cruse Bereavement Care (Freefone 0808 808 1677).  I hope you also have friends who care for you.

When my mum died I put a photo in place of her being physically with me.  I talked to her, put a photo of my son - who was born after she died - next to her photos, wrote notes to her and burned them on a candle so they might float up to her.  You should do anything that helps you.

I am so sorry.