Good morning Ness.  I am not surprised you haven't just bounced back.  Cancer is not easy in any way shape or form.  It is normal to feel tired and confused and it is a safe space here to write down your feelings.  I had breast cancer and had a lumpectomy, sentinel nodes removed.  Then had chemo, radiotherapy and on hormone blockers.  I just got on with treatment and drove myself to the 15 sessions of radiotherapy every day.  It took me two years to cry after treatment.  It is funny how these things hit you at different times.  Cancer is a *** and changes your life.  Saying all that , things will get better.  It is good that you have found this forum, I find it beneficial for support from others who have cancer.  I hope that the 'something' in your left breast is okay, do you have a scan planned for that?  I am sending you hugs, you are not alone and I am here if you want to chat.

Lee x 

Thank you Lee, it’s a tough old journey. There’s no plan yet. The surgical team meet is on Friday this week. I was proper poorly yesterday and stayed in bed most of the afternoon. And… I actually slept straight through the night too  

I can’t believe how your response has affected me in a great way! I don’t think I realised the benefits of support from people I don’t know, but who understand the journey. Thank you SO much for replying.  

I think I expected it to be easier as I’ve had quite a few surgeries over the years but this really does get in your head doesn’t it. 

Do you feel that your experience has changed you as a person? I do hope that you’re doing well now. 

thanks again, brought a happy tear to my eye

xx

hi Ness. I’ve just been diagnosed with breast cancer and I’m scheduled to have a lumpectomy. My husband died in his 40s from pancreatic cancer and I am reluctant to tell my four adult children my news because I don’t want them to be worrying about me. I’d rather tell them when the news is more positive, but it’s left me feeling quite lonely.  I want to share my news but I’m not sure which of my friends would keep it a secret and so I’ve ended up not telling anyone. Like you I’m usually upbeat, positive and the solver of problems. 

I am also sending you hugs and positive vibes. It’s pretty rubbish isn’t it?

Bex x 

Hi Bex, I didn’t tell my adult kids for a while and they were really cross with me. They said that they always want to support me and how would I feel if it was one of them and they didn’t tell me. It made me look at the situation in a different way and I really needed them so glad I told them. Everyone is different in their views or thoughts but having support and not holding it in may help you. Good luck and best wishes x