Breast Cancer

I’ve finished my radiotherapy and have been off work for 3 weeks. I’m waiting for a decision to be made about something unknown in my left breast and a biopsy couldn’t be done. I’m on oestrogen suppressant tablets and I have no idea if the deep sadness I feel is a result of this or the radiotherapy. Today I’ve felt SO tired, with headache and my stomach is churning. I’m so use to bouncing back from everything but maybe not this. I guess I’m feeling confused and discombobulated. Believe it or not I’m usually up beat, positive, and make it my business to not keep complaining, just not today.

  • Good morning Ness.  I am not surprised you haven't just bounced back.  Cancer is not easy in any way shape or form.  It is normal to feel tired and confused and it is a safe space here to write down your feelings.  I had breast cancer and had a lumpectomy, sentinel nodes removed.  Then had chemo, radiotherapy and on hormone blockers.  I just got on with treatment and drove myself to the 15 sessions of radiotherapy every day.  It took me two years to cry after treatment.  It is funny how these things hit you at different times.  Cancer is a *** and changes your life.  Saying all that , things will get better.  It is good that you have found this forum, I find it beneficial for support from others who have cancer.  I hope that the 'something' in your left breast is okay, do you have a scan planned for that?  I am sending you hugs, you are not alone and I am here if you want to chat.

    Lee x 

  • Thank you Lee, it’s a tough old journey. There’s no plan yet. The surgical team meet is on Friday this week. I was proper poorly yesterday and stayed in bed most of the afternoon. And… I actually slept straight through the night too  

    I can’t believe how your response has affected me in a great way! I don’t think I realised the benefits of support from people I don’t know, but who understand the journey. Thank you SO much for replying.  

    I think I expected it to be easier as I’ve had quite a few surgeries over the years but this really does get in your head doesn’t it. 

    Do you feel that your experience has changed you as a person? I do hope that you’re doing well now. 

    thanks again, brought a happy tear to my eye

    xx