I am new to this forum. My husband, aged 76, has been diagnosed with cancer of the stomach and oesophagus. Thus far he has had CT scan Endoscopy, gastroscopy, and PET scan. A lesion on the liver was probably not malignant, but further tests (MRI and laparoscopy) will be carried out. In addition, heart and lung resilience has been found to be OK, but overall fitness has yet to be assessed.
I am supporting him every step of the way, but we live in mid Devon, and some of the tests and the operation if it is deemed to be ok in the light of all the test results, will be in Plymouth - many miles away. To support him, I would have to stay at a hotel, since travelling back and forth each day is not viable.
I am finding it all overwhelming. In many ways (and I feel so guilty expressing this) I almost have come to wish that the operation (brutal, life-changing and long recovery) is found to be impossible. Which then gives a 1 year, at best, life expectancy.
I'm finding it hard to be positive, but the strain between us (irritability etc) is becoming unbearable.
Just putting this on screen is hard, and I hope that someone, somewhere has a few words of comfort and advice.
