Hello moonlighting

Reading your struggle has brought tears to my eyes, its been 6 months today since I watched my dad take his last breath ,he'd been struggling with MDS since November 2020....and became gravely ill in February 2021 with chest septicaemia which affected both lungs and his heart.

What annoyed me was that due to covid only my mother could visit him, I used every excuse to see him as he didn't want mum to know he was dieing!!!! Plus I needed to sort out finances and will  as well as cope with the knowledge that dad would die.

He was in and out of hospital on 4 occasions coming out for maximum of 6 days  having blood transfusions and chemotherapy plus covid jabs!!! 

Life is now trying to come to terms with my rock has gone as he did everything for me growing up, my mum has a lot of mental issues so her understanding of looking after both my brother and myself was basic.

It's hard to work and live with my dad gone, sometimes I talk to him snd ask for guidance.....like you I'm broken. 

Your story has given me comfort that I'm not alone. 

Take care and healing soon.

Hi 

I lost my dad on Jan 7th and I'm heartbroken  

I wake every morning and have to catch my breath  I just can't believe he is gone  

Hi 

I lost my dad on Jan 7th and I'm heartbroken  

I wake every morning and have to catch my breath  I just can't believe he is gone  

Hi, I just wanted to know how you are getting on? My dad passed 28.2.22 the funeral was only 14.3.22 and following that myself, my husband and all 3 kids 5 and under have covid. It's been a difficult week and I've been struggling to even find time to have chance to think of dad. I'm scared what my life will be like when I realise I'll never see or hear him again. I miss him so much but haven't yet felt I've had time to feel or think about anything properly. I do hope you're making your way through processing everything that's happened to you and your dad. I'm here.x

I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. 
We are both going through this and it's so so hard. 
Im the same, I just long for him so much. I still can't believe it. I'm the same, I have 3 children and you have to carry on but inside you are breaking and hurting so much. 
I am trying to go out for a walk everyday, I spend most of it crying but I feel it helps my thoughts. 
if ever you want to talk I'm here 

Sorry for late reply life is so manic, I'm still waiting for probate and trying to look after my mum,  I've been fortunate to receive some money from NHS due to infected blood from blood transfusion 33 years ago, so have dropped one of my jobs.

Still processing my dad not being here, but its getting easier and I still talk to him for guidance,  sometimes I think he answers me, as I knew he saw me struggling so helped out, I believe they have power beyond the grave and it gives me strength ️, special times of the year are difficult tho, keep going and ask for help x

Hi

I feel your pain, it feels like your world has stopped, but you carry on, it's still good to talk to him and keep looking for signs he's around, I ask my dad a question and say if I see a coin on the floor the answer is yes, it kinda feels strange but I believe after we have gone we can still communicate. 

It gives me hope and helps me through the day x