I’m really struggling with the fact my dad died

I don't really know where to turn because no one I know has really gone through this yet. 
I lost my dad 2 months ago and it's absolutely destroying me. My dad played both mum and dad and I've lost 2 parents in one and im broken. We spoke and saw each other every single day without fail and im so lonely without him. My heart has broken and I have no one to turn to. Im not depressed but im extremely sad, lonely and my heart has truly shattered. I try and talk to friends and family but they don't understand and I keep getting "I'm always here" and "at least you got to say goodbye". It's like my world has stopped and everyone else's is still going and I feel like whenever I'm around people I instantly drag their mood down. I just genuinely don't know how to cope that he is no longer here

I would like to just thank everyone for their kind words and support, it is very appreciated. I haven't had much time recently to reply but I want you all to know I'm here for you ️  you'll never be alone in the world when people as nice as you lot are here x

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  • Hello , 

           You did the best you could , I suffer with so much guilt, I retired from the NHS to care for my mum but there was also my dad who needed so much care , I did this for quite a while anyway my mum died and than I cared for my dad which went on for 1 year , I just said to dad can we have some help and he said no , we had a argument I was tired and frustrated, and than what I thought was a lovely day on the Wednesday he died in his chair , I did apologise in the morning but I can’t get this out of my head this happened in 2012 ,. 

     Sorry for going on Shellyann 

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  • Hello , 

           You did the best you could , I suffer with so much guilt, I retired from the NHS to care for my mum but there was also my dad who needed so much care , I did this for quite a while anyway my mum died and than I cared for my dad which went on for 1 year , I just said to dad can we have some help and he said no , we had a argument I was tired and frustrated, and than what I thought was a lovely day on the Wednesday he died in his chair , I did apologise in the morning but I can’t get this out of my head this happened in 2012 ,. 

     Sorry for going on Shellyann 

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