I'm so sorry for your loss and I'm in a similar situation. my father passed away 4 weeks ago and people say "he lived to a good old age" as if that's a comfort?! 
 

In all honesty - there is nothing I can say that will make you feel better - for now. All I can say is, each day brings new opportunities to smile should we so wish to; a memory, a flower etc. 

My Dad was my hero and I'm unable to function most of the time. Im jumping through the stages of grief and no where near acceptance and that's ok. My dad wasn't the type that would allow me to "wallow" which was a cause of many an argument when he was alive however, I can see why he didn't want me to sit and be a "sissy" (his choice word) when things got hard. He was from the "silent generation" and had me much, much later in life. He wasn't at all politically correct in gender issues which when reading the news now makes me chuckle when I think of his reactions.
 

I cry, I get angry, I don't eat or sleep, my mood brings others down (those that know you and truly care will not mind the low mood) but - on occasion - I smile & laugh and deep down I hope for more of these occasions to arise and override the sadness and pain. I can't promise everyday won't bring a bout of tears but I can promise there will be times where you will smile and eventually we both will be able to laugh a happy laugh, I can't say when but it will happen and when it does you'll smile at yourself
 

I'm so sorry for your loss and I'm in a similar situation. my father passed away 4 weeks ago and people say "he lived to a good old age" as if that's a comfort?! 
 

In all honesty - there is nothing I can say that will make you feel better - for now. All I can say is, each day brings new opportunities to smile should we so wish to; a memory, a flower etc. 

My Dad was my hero and I'm unable to function most of the time. Im jumping through the stages of grief and no where near acceptance and that's ok. My dad wasn't the type that would allow me to "wallow" which was a cause of many an argument when he was alive however, I can see why he didn't want me to sit and be a "sissy" (his choice word) when things got hard. He was from the "silent generation" and had me much, much later in life. He wasn't at all politically correct in gender issues which when reading the news now makes me chuckle when I think of his reactions.
 

I cry, I get angry, I don't eat or sleep, my mood brings others down (those that know you and truly care will not mind the low mood) but - on occasion - I smile & laugh and deep down I hope for more of these occasions to arise and override the sadness and pain. I can't promise everyday won't bring a bout of tears but I can promise there will be times where you will smile and eventually we both will be able to laugh a happy laugh, I can't say when but it will happen and when it does you'll smile at yourself
 

Hello [@lulaloop]‍ your message really struck me

My dad was also my absolute hero. In fact those were the exact words I stammered out at his funeral a few weeks ago. We were so so close, and I'm heartbroken he's gone. I only learnt of his cancer after he suddenly passed away, his death was an absolute sudden shock to us all. 

Please do feel free to DM! We can support one another! 
 

hannah 

Hi! Sorry for the really late reply, I have just had time to grieve really and accept it. It has only taken me nearly two years but I hope you are doing okay now? Please reach out if you ever feel lost, I am no professional but I can help from experience :)