Ya no it feel s like like am the only one going through this am sure you feel the same it’s only after hearing from others that you realise that your not alone and I find it hard to speak to ppl as I don’t wanna make ppl feel down but it’s so very sad that everyone eventually will loose the ppl they love and it’s jyst so unfair was my birthday on 17 th went out with my lad and five of his mates  but few them are like sons to me and they allways tell me if not for me and my mrs god bless her they don’t think they would be the persons they are today  as we sorta looked after are kids friends when there parents weren’t there for them and even type in this makes me cry Xmas is a time when my feelings get the better of me I always think if tears could make a staircase ide cry my way to heaven and her bake again oh dear merry Xmas for what it’s worth 

Ya no it feel s like like am the only one going through this am sure you feel the same it’s only after hearing from others that you realise that your not alone and I find it hard to speak to ppl as I don’t wanna make ppl feel down but it’s so very sad that everyone eventually will loose the ppl they love and it’s jyst so unfair was my birthday on 17 th went out with my lad and five of his mates  but few them are like sons to me and they allways tell me if not for me and my mrs god bless her they don’t think they would be the persons they are today  as we sorta looked after are kids friends when there parents weren’t there for them and even type in this makes me cry Xmas is a time when my feelings get the better of me I always think if tears could make a staircase ide cry my way to heaven and her bake again oh dear merry Xmas for what it’s worth