Hi Stu

You have my deepest sympathy and I know what you're going through. My lovely wife passed away in June 2018 and I'm on the same path as you. You're right about the music because it takes you back to all the lovely times you had. Try and get some counselling if you can, I did find it helpful and accept any help you can find.

Please remember that grief is not forever. But love is.

Tears are the silent language of grief. I know how tough it is and please stay strong. Chris 

Tbh don’t think I’ll ever be the same again I have appointment in January to see Bereavment counciler I think am going insane sometimes when I go town or shopping if I see someone who looks similar from the back I have to double check it’s not her I no it’s not but I just have to check I found some old vhs recordedings one was of Xmas 29 years ago Xmas morning with the two boys age 4 and 1 don’t think I’ve ever cryd that much and one of uss when we were young with our blue and gold macaw parrot who used to fly to us soon as we walked in happy day I suppose am lucky to be here I’ve had many many heart attack’s 4 stents and have a defibrillator in my chest was 52 last week and I go for biopsy on my throat Wednesday dr said don’t look good but fingers crossed 

Tbh don’t think I’ll ever be the same again I have appointment in January to see Bereavment counciler I think am going insane sometimes when I go town or shopping if I see someone who looks similar from the back I have to double check it’s not her I no it’s not but I just have to check I found some old vhs recordedings one was of Xmas 29 years ago Xmas morning with the two boys age 4 and 1 don’t think I’ve ever cryd that much and one of uss when we were young with our blue and gold macaw parrot who used to fly to us soon as we walked in happy day I suppose am lucky to be here I’ve had many many heart attack’s 4 stents and have a defibrillator in my chest was 52 last week and I go for biopsy on my throat Wednesday dr said don’t look good but fingers crossed