I feel your loss, I lost my husband this June, I try and be brave but I am screaming inside. It's so difficult, I miss him so much. I wonder if life is worth carrying on. What with the pandemic, it's really tough. I would love to be able to speak to others who have lost their loved ones. 

I feel your loss, I lost my husband this June, I try and be brave but I am screaming inside. It's so difficult, I miss him so much. I wonder if life is worth carrying on. What with the pandemic, it's really tough. I would love to be able to speak to others who have lost their loved ones. 

I can't begin to imagine how difficult this journey must be for you Carmarthenshire but as you've seen on this discussion, you are not alone and support is available.

As you've said, the pandemic has made things a lot more challenging but if you feel you need to talk to someone you could do what Longcliffe and Stu02 have done and look in to bereavement counselling. Two charities which provide this are Cruse Bereavement Care and Sue Ryder, with the latter offering free online video chat counselling. To find out more just click here.

The long winter nights can be very tough if you're on your own but the Samartians are available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week on 116 123 if you find yourself needing to talk when no-one else is around. They are there to listen and will do all they can to support you. 

In the meantime, try to take things a day at a time and be kind to yourself. 

Kind regards,

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

shopping if I see someone who looks similar from the back I have to double check it’s not her I no it’s not but I just have to check I found some old vhs recordedings one was of Xmas 29 years ago Xmas morning with the two boys age 4 and 1 don’t think I’ve ever cryd that much and one of uss when we were young with our blue and gold macaw parrot who used to fly to us soon as we walked in happy day I suppose am lucky to be here I’ve had many many heart attack’s 4 stents and have a defibrillator in my chest was 52 last week and I go for biopsy on my throat Wednesday dr said don’t look good but fingers crossed 

It’s definitely not worth giving up believe me after my loss I tryed to hang myself 3 times and I suddenly realised that some one would have to find me and I wouldn’t wish that on anyone and what would my sons think it’s the ppl we leave behind that after suffer and I miss  my Louise so much I now she would be so disappointed in me if she new so I wouldn’t take my own life and you have to carry on one day at a time I don’t no what else to say except god bless you 

Just a quick one you haven’t been alone over Xmas have you not good to be alone that’s when everything turns to mega sht hope ur ok and enjoying what you can 

Thank you, no haven't been alone, but it was a tough day. By the night felt exhausted. But got through the day. Day at a time. You look after yourself.