I feel your loss, I lost my husband this June, I try and be brave but I am screaming inside. It's so difficult, I miss him so much. I wonder if life is worth carrying on. What with the pandemic, it's really tough. I would love to be able to speak to others who have lost their loved ones. 

shopping if I see someone who looks similar from the back I have to double check it’s not her I no it’s not but I just have to check I found some old vhs recordedings one was of Xmas 29 years ago Xmas morning with the two boys age 4 and 1 don’t think I’ve ever cryd that much and one of uss when we were young with our blue and gold macaw parrot who used to fly to us soon as we walked in happy day I suppose am lucky to be here I’ve had many many heart attack’s 4 stents and have a defibrillator in my chest was 52 last week and I go for biopsy on my throat Wednesday dr said don’t look good but fingers crossed 

shopping if I see someone who looks similar from the back I have to double check it’s not her I no it’s not but I just have to check I found some old vhs recordedings one was of Xmas 29 years ago Xmas morning with the two boys age 4 and 1 don’t think I’ve ever cryd that much and one of uss when we were young with our blue and gold macaw parrot who used to fly to us soon as we walked in happy day I suppose am lucky to be here I’ve had many many heart attack’s 4 stents and have a defibrillator in my chest was 52 last week and I go for biopsy on my throat Wednesday dr said don’t look good but fingers crossed