Hi Boo, I also lost my mum to secondary breast cancer in March this year. I can't believe it has been 7 months and I seem to be feeling worse instead of better. I have health problems and never married or had kids so my mum and I were inseparable. We lived together, holidayed together and finished each others' sentences. My relatives and friends have been so good to me especially my brother and I feel so ungrateful because all I can think about is that I will never be happy again. I would never say that to any of them because they have done so much for me but I never thought I could feel so much pain. The coronavirus situation isn't helping either. I'm in N Ireland and was just getting to the stage where I could go for a coffee or have someone visit. Now we are practically locked down again and realistically could be for quite some time and I'm having panic attacks at the thought of that. Thank you so much for listening. I feel as if I should be starting to come to terms with things and that my friends are going to get sick of hearing me go over the same ground. I am so sorry that you are having such a bad time too but to be honest it makes me feel that my own emotions are normal, if that makes sense.

Hi Boo, I also lost my mum to secondary breast cancer in March this year. I can't believe it has been 7 months and I seem to be feeling worse instead of better. I have health problems and never married or had kids so my mum and I were inseparable. We lived together, holidayed together and finished each others' sentences. My relatives and friends have been so good to me especially my brother and I feel so ungrateful because all I can think about is that I will never be happy again. I would never say that to any of them because they have done so much for me but I never thought I could feel so much pain. The coronavirus situation isn't helping either. I'm in N Ireland and was just getting to the stage where I could go for a coffee or have someone visit. Now we are practically locked down again and realistically could be for quite some time and I'm having panic attacks at the thought of that. Thank you so much for listening. I feel as if I should be starting to come to terms with things and that my friends are going to get sick of hearing me go over the same ground. I am so sorry that you are having such a bad time too but to be honest it makes me feel that my own emotions are normal, if that makes sense.