Hi Boo20

I lost my Mum to secondary cancer just this Tuesday.

I read your words and I feel the same.

I don't know what to do without her here and I wonder if I did everything right for her as I recently became her live in carer for her to stay at home. If I could have done better for her. I like awake each night rethinking and reliving the last few weeks.

But she would want you to go on, just like I know my Mum would, even if we don't  feel like it right now X

Hi Boo20

I lost my Mum to secondary cancer just this Tuesday.

I read your words and I feel the same.

I don't know what to do without her here and I wonder if I did everything right for her as I recently became her live in carer for her to stay at home. If I could have done better for her. I like awake each night rethinking and reliving the last few weeks.

But she would want you to go on, just like I know my Mum would, even if we don't  feel like it right now X

I am truly so sorry for your loss x

It's a pain no words can heal.

Just devastating xx

Hi Andrea,

I can't begin to understand how you must be feeling. 
I understand that feeling of if you did enough and I'm sure you absolutely did and more. What's more, I'm sure your Mum was really grateful for your care and I bet she was proud of you too!

Don't beat yourself up, I did the same at first but then I realised that I tried my best for my Mum and I know it meant the world to her. I'm so grateful I got to spend her last few weeks with her, not everyone gets that time. Try and stay strong and look for the positives cause they are there. Stay in touch on here and keep talking, crying, looking at photos, listening to music- anything that helps you process it all.

I'm not there yet, I miss her terribly still, however it is getting a little easier now.

Take care

GB

I can relate too. I constantly relive the worst moments of my mums illness. It physically hurts.