Hello Boo20,

I read your post yesterday and couldn't find the words. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Losing your mum is so hard and 7 months is no time at all. 

I lost my beautiful mum 2 years ago to blood cancer- 26 September 2018 therefore I am further along this journey but I understand some of how you're feeling and I wanted to let you know that somehow you will find the strengh to go on.

Your're right, it is physical pain, you can almost feel your heart breaking and for me, panic attacks also. Strange thing to say but don't fight it, you have to grieve and there is no time frame. The crying is hard I know and you can't stop the tears, doesn't matter where you are or who you're with.

You mentioned mood swings, I was so angry at everybody and everything.

The only advice I can give is to take each day at a time, sometimes it's even just a minute at a time. I hope you have family close by who you can talk to, I am the worst person to take my own advice but don't hide away, I don't think your mum would want that.

I think about how our mum's loved us unconditionally and how it would break their hearts to see us so sad. 

Our mum's gave us the gift of life and hard as it us and it does break you I know, we have to go on and hopefully make our mum's proud....I believe my mum's around, looking down, making sure I'm ok and I talk to her photo every day to let her know how I'm doing, crazy as that sounds.

You said your mum is in everything you do, that's good, hold onto that.

I'm not sure how old you are, whether the 20 in your name refers to your age, I'm 57 but feel like a little girl lost, any age to lose a parent, it is a great loss.

I promise you the raw pain you're feeling now will get easier in time, you'll never stop missing your mum, that's true but you can go on, I always go back to this verse-

The river of grief is deep and wide

But happiness awaits you on the other side

And the love of those around you, will take you there

Take care Boo20 and come back on this forum whenever you need to, I do and people have helped me.

Linda

x

Hello Boo20,

I read your post yesterday and couldn't find the words. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Losing your mum is so hard and 7 months is no time at all. 

I lost my beautiful mum 2 years ago to blood cancer- 26 September 2018 therefore I am further along this journey but I understand some of how you're feeling and I wanted to let you know that somehow you will find the strengh to go on.

Your're right, it is physical pain, you can almost feel your heart breaking and for me, panic attacks also. Strange thing to say but don't fight it, you have to grieve and there is no time frame. The crying is hard I know and you can't stop the tears, doesn't matter where you are or who you're with.

You mentioned mood swings, I was so angry at everybody and everything.

The only advice I can give is to take each day at a time, sometimes it's even just a minute at a time. I hope you have family close by who you can talk to, I am the worst person to take my own advice but don't hide away, I don't think your mum would want that.

I think about how our mum's loved us unconditionally and how it would break their hearts to see us so sad. 

Our mum's gave us the gift of life and hard as it us and it does break you I know, we have to go on and hopefully make our mum's proud....I believe my mum's around, looking down, making sure I'm ok and I talk to her photo every day to let her know how I'm doing, crazy as that sounds.

You said your mum is in everything you do, that's good, hold onto that.

I'm not sure how old you are, whether the 20 in your name refers to your age, I'm 57 but feel like a little girl lost, any age to lose a parent, it is a great loss.

I promise you the raw pain you're feeling now will get easier in time, you'll never stop missing your mum, that's true but you can go on, I always go back to this verse-

The river of grief is deep and wide

But happiness awaits you on the other side

And the love of those around you, will take you there

Take care Boo20 and come back on this forum whenever you need to, I do and people have helped me.

Linda

x

Thank you for replying.

Lovely words and the poem is beautiful x

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