I was 31, I lost my dad 2 weeks before I had his first grandchild, 

I am here to tell you I promise you it gets better and as above, maneagable. Even with a new baby I wanted to be with him and had all the same thoughts, there is no other way to describe it, the pain is a physical pain in your heart and the emotions are a rollercoaster. 
 

I am 3 years on, I had the baby, I went ahead with the big white wedding we had pulled forward for my dad and I am about to have my second. Some days are hard, but there was a turning point when the tears stopped every day and the thoughts became happy ones, promise. 

Thank you for the encouraging message x

Katie sorry for your loss, I know how your feeling my father also passed away but I do afto say this and i don't know if it's the same for anyone else but my pain and grief i have after he went will never go it's been nearly 10 years might aswell been yesterday! Its only  in my dreams where he's alive and with me then when I awake the horrible thought of reality hits me the pain and grief starts again everyone's different I know and grieve in thier own way. Parents teach you everthing in life apart from how to cope when their gone.

Wow your post rings so true for me and my story. I lost my dad this year in Feb22 after only 3 months of my dad being poorly. We found out he had bladder cancer in Dec, January we were told it was terminal...6months to 18months with treatment and he died in Feb22. I still can't believe that I'm writing words like this as it feels unreal and im Itotally living a nightmare I was never ever prepared for. It happened so quick, we just reacted to everything. Biggest thing that upsets me is it was contained and still nothing could be done. He was so strong like always and just never really talked about how he was feeling.  I do wish he had but that was my dad...never wanted to upset his family. I just miss him so much he was my hero, my rock, my person. Does this pain and emptiness in your heart ever go.  Hope everyone whos lost someone are doing OK. 

It's awful when it's so quick isn't it , struggled to get a diagnosis for my Dad he was in and rapidly out of hospital (covid times) without being sorted , diagnosed and passed within 3 months .  The first few months are horrific, your on as they say a journey, it doesn't pain you as badly with time it just becomes different.  It's very draining isn't it and I think it's a process you got to go through. Talking about it is my regret too at the time but it was a rollercoaster at the time trying to keep him safe at home. It will get easier xx 

Hi Katie a very reply firstly how are things for you now? How are you coping?  Xx my dad also passed away in may 2019 it's been 4 years and I'm still a mess I still don't understand why he was gone in just 5 months when he or us never even knew he had cancer at all he was so fit and healthy so we had a massive shock to say the least.. My life has changed I've changed life without my dad is too quiet I hated everyday.. I still hate everyday I'm completely broken.. As we went into lock down the following march just at a time I need some councilling there was none then we had over the phone but I wanted face to face.. I'm going to try again as I'm still not accepting he's gone.. I live everyday telling myself he's at the house it's the only way I'm able to cope.. I have 4 granddaughters who keep me going but evrytime I try to be happy there's this pull that brings me back to sadness I can't seem to overcome it to be relaxed or happy enough to enjoy anything like I used too..these a constant sadness.. Its so hard.. Would be lovely to hear back from you hope your doing better than me . Xx