Hi 

My best friend died on the 1st Decemberr 2018 ,. after a short battle with bowel cancer. She was only 35 years old and the most amazing lady and mum. 

Lately I have been struggling with the reality of what the cancer did to her. As she was so young her heart was strong, which meant that her body carried on for at least 3 weeks longer then normal. But in doing so it meant that we watched as the rest of her body wasted away to nothing - literally. It was horrific to watch. 

I thought I was okay with it all, but the last few weeks the images have been playing on my mind. I feel guilty for even feeling like that as whatever I feel it is even worse for her husband and children. 

 Just wondering if anyone else has experienced this and if so ways of dealing with it?