just lost husband to stage 4 cancer

hello, everyone, I am from New York and came across this website that looks so helpful, on August 18th the love of my life passed away from stage 4 lung cancer that had spread to his liver, bones, and brain. This is the most painful thing I have ever gone through in my life, I feel so half empty without him. The crazy thing about it is we found out about cancer on August 1st by the 18th he passed away. Everything was such a shock and still is, it's killing me inside not having him here with me especially at night. I look at our four children and the thought that he won't be around for their growing up is unbearable. You know the symptoms did not start to show until July when he started complaining of his back, right shoulder, and arm, he went into the hospital on July 31st and on Aug 1st we found out about cancer, I thought he had months to a year, not two weeks can anyone else who has gone through this with a loved one please tell me how they deal and cope with this because I feel like I am going into depression I cry every day, I miss and love him so much we were together 16 years, I will never have another man like him  

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  • Love and warmth  to you Shakia still so hard for you I lost my Jim last year memories  have given me strength,I wish we could make sense of why our partners have been so cruelly snatched from us it was all very quick for my man as well. I hope they are flying high and one day we will be with them again.

    The love we shared with them can not be taken away they didn’t want to go and none of us have had a choice in that my love take care of yourself I have kept everything the same not changed anything bedroom is still as it was Jim’s things still around me I want to feel him around me .This brings me some comfort but I still feel so empty lonely and angry at what cancer does to us love chrisxx

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  • Love and warmth  to you Shakia still so hard for you I lost my Jim last year memories  have given me strength,I wish we could make sense of why our partners have been so cruelly snatched from us it was all very quick for my man as well. I hope they are flying high and one day we will be with them again.

    The love we shared with them can not be taken away they didn’t want to go and none of us have had a choice in that my love take care of yourself I have kept everything the same not changed anything bedroom is still as it was Jim’s things still around me I want to feel him around me .This brings me some comfort but I still feel so empty lonely and angry at what cancer does to us love chrisxx

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