just lost husband to stage 4 cancer

hello, everyone, I am from New York and came across this website that looks so helpful, on August 18th the love of my life passed away from stage 4 lung cancer that had spread to his liver, bones, and brain. This is the most painful thing I have ever gone through in my life, I feel so half empty without him. The crazy thing about it is we found out about cancer on August 1st by the 18th he passed away. Everything was such a shock and still is, it's killing me inside not having him here with me especially at night. I look at our four children and the thought that he won't be around for their growing up is unbearable. You know the symptoms did not start to show until July when he started complaining of his back, right shoulder, and arm, he went into the hospital on July 31st and on Aug 1st we found out about cancer, I thought he had months to a year, not two weeks can anyone else who has gone through this with a loved one please tell me how they deal and cope with this because I feel like I am going into depression I cry every day, I miss and love him so much we were together 16 years, I will never have another man like him  

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  • Dear Shakia6, I truly feel your pain, I lost my beautiful husband only 19 days ago. He had ALK a rare form of lung cancer. Everyday is a struggle and I still can't comphrehend that he is no longer with me. We've been together for 27 years and have 2 beautiful children. I understand when you say the pain is unbearable. the night time and early in the morning is the worse for me. I dread going to sleep because I know that tomorrow will be the same empty feeling. I'm sad for all the things that he will not be able to experince, all the little milestones and big in our children's lives. I miss him so much that it physically hurts...people say time

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  • Dear Shakia6, I truly feel your pain, I lost my beautiful husband only 19 days ago. He had ALK a rare form of lung cancer. Everyday is a struggle and I still can't comphrehend that he is no longer with me. We've been together for 27 years and have 2 beautiful children. I understand when you say the pain is unbearable. the night time and early in the morning is the worse for me. I dread going to sleep because I know that tomorrow will be the same empty feeling. I'm sad for all the things that he will not be able to experince, all the little milestones and big in our children's lives. I miss him so much that it physically hurts...people say time

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