Hello,

I was extremely close to my mum and I looked after her 24/7 in her final few weeks. Sadly, she passed away after a long fight with breast cancer. Quickly after her death I went travelling with my boyfriend and between us we were really good. Since coming home, the shock of losing my mum hit me and suddenly I had to grieve and get used to house etc and then I was back at uni with even more stress and work - I live at uni during term time. Now, i've started pushing my boyfriend away and hes irritating me. We've been together for 5 years and we were so happy but now I dont feel the same way and I cant think of a rational reasoning why. I don't want to break up with him if my feelings are being distorted because I'm going through grief. I told him that I was going to start going to counselling to talk through my issues and he got upset and offended that I wasn't talking to him. 

I'm going through so much and I cant think clearly - especially in what is best for me and my relationship.

Any advice?