I'm not sure I was too far from your state of mind this time last week. Absolutely sick with worry and convinced I had lukemia or lymphoma.

A week, some blood tests and a good chat with the doc later and I'm doing much better.

I hope you're asleep now but if you're not drop me a message, take care 

Thank you so much for replying. I was looking for someone to tell my story. I passed the stage now of If I have a cancer. My symptoms are very bad. Worsenig bad throat, needing  a lot of water, stomach pains. I'm gone. Tests dhould have been done a year ago.

I will be sedated for the endoscopy and who knows my heart might let go. I will try to be ready from the religious point of view. 

I'm really happy you are well. Just have that feeling for everyone to do well and be healthy.

Believe me my symptoms appeared to be worsening over the course of a few weeks and I was 100% convinced. 

Don't lose hope, wait for results/diagnosis/prognosis, it may all be much much better than you fear, even if it is cancer 

Hi

i feel I've an understanding of what you're going through I feel similar at the moment, I've got ct scans this afternoon to investigate a pain in my abdomen, I've had it a year, had an ultrasound last year and they found a gallstone so although my symptoms weren't really gallstone symptom they thought that might be it. I had my gallbladder out in January and the pain is still there/worse. My Gp checked my ultrasound and saw they hadn't been able to see all my pancreas so that's what they're looking at today. I'm convinced It will be  pancreatic cancer  and am terrified of the results, I haven't told my daughters yet and don't know how I will, I'm very weepy today and certain I know what the results will be, just wanted to let you know you're not alone with these feelings 

Meg x

Hi

i feel I've an understanding of what you're going through I feel similar at the moment, I've got ct scans this afternoon to investigate a pain in my abdomen, I've had it a year, had an ultrasound last year and they found a gallstone so although my symptoms weren't really gallstone symptom they thought that might be it. I had my gallbladder out in January and the pain is still there/worse. My Gp checked my ultrasound and saw they hadn't been able to see all my pancreas so that's what they're looking at today. I'm convinced It will be  pancreatic cancer  and am terrified of the results, I haven't told my daughters yet and don't know how I will, I'm very weepy today and certain I know what the results will be, just wanted to let you know you're not alone with these feelings 

Meg x

Thank you for your good words Meg. What made it worse for me is that when I discussed the CT scan results he told me that we can exclude large cancers, metastased and all that. And now I discover that actually this is not really the case.

I wish you all the luck today, you will be in my thoughts, as I said I have that feeling for everyoone to be healthy and that urge to help people. It's something that unless someone experiences it does not understand it. I have children too. So I understand that side too which is my drama.

Thankyou for the good luck wishes and I'm sending the same to you for your endoscopy x

At the moment my biggest worry is leaving my daughters- they're in their 20's but I wanted to grow old with them- but I imagine that if the worst is confirmed I'll realise there will be a lot more to worry about too, I just wish none of us were going through this x

Meg

Mine are one in the 20s and one is just 19. Hearbreaking, can't think about it. The only thing that relieves my pain somehow is that if I go first is better than lose a child. I see so many parents going through health issues relating to their children and I say better me than them.

X

Hi guys

just letting you know I've had my ct results back and they haven't found anything so I'm elated (also a little worried as I've definitely got pain) my GP doesn't want to do any more tests so I'm going to try and relax and not worry but I may have to get private tests done to get to the bottom of the pain but at the moment I'm trying to focus on nothing being found.

sending my best wishes to you all 

Meg xx

Great news Meg, really happy for you.

May I ask something about the time of your CT scan, you had it on a Saturday on the NHS? they do such tests over the weekend?

All the best,

Hi

yes I had my ct scans nhs on Saturday 16.00hrs and my Gp had my results this morning!

sending you positive thoughts x

Meg x

Hi Meg,

I'm so happy for you. Enjoy your girls!

Thank you for your thoughts. 

Very nice to have communicated with you.

All the best,