Hi Loubell1,

Did you ever get any answers on the fast progression from CIN1 to 3? I too was diagnosed last year with HPV and no abnormalities. This year I have been diagnosed with HPV and high grade severe dyskaryosis. The rate of growth over the past 12 months is obviously concerning me and raises the same question. My Colposcopy is in 4 days time. It would be good to hear how you have got on and if you have learned anything new since your last post.

Hi, hope you're well!

im going through a similar experience now and very anxious and worried! :( do you mind sharing your outcome?x

Did you get your smear results by the way?? Xx

It took around 6 weeks for my results to come back I think. By then i'd forgotten about it. When I was talking to the nurses they advised me to see my doctor over the anxiety because they can give medication to help me gain control and calm my emotions. Even if only temporary it may do my body more good than being in a constant state of panic and anxiety. I'm not big on meds and not really happy taking them but what they said did make sense and had I not have had other strategies to help my anxiety I would have run with their advise as a short term, temporary solution. This may be a possibility for you that you could benefit from if you are struggling as living in this constant state of fear and anxiety is no good. Maybe even just speaking to your doctor again they may be able to put you at ease with further discussion or a short term solution. 

No I havn't had them back yet. I don't expect them for another 6 weeks and i'm not worried. If something is there they can crack on with treating it again. Or that's what I tell myself. But tbh I'm just assuming i'm ok. I havn't sensed anything off about myself and the nurse said it lookes good where as last time she did pick up on something so I'm just getting on  with living my life. I don't think about it. Speak to your doctor again won't you. Try to get a bit more support from them. X

Oh wow 6 weeks, so long! I was told 2 but still nothing! I'm thinking of calling the colposcopy department next Monday if still no results by then. Just scared the receptionist will tell me to wait for a docs call which will make me faint at this point ;( I was already looking at the valerian root and cbd, almost bought it but giving it a few more days as I'm also very much against any medication even if natural :( hopefully will hear something soon x how was your latest smear test after the lletz? Are you in the clear now? Xx

Ah I see! I wish I could think like you! I wish I was normal, always struggled with mental health but this brought up massive flare ups :( ahh... I'm glad you're feeling ok! I'm just so so worried because I felt something being off with my reproductive organs for over 2 years but was ignored by gps and a&e.. they kept doing sti tests, seeing it's clear and sending me home with no answers. Maybe I'll ring the hospital tomorrow I'm not sure, kinda think if the results were cancer they'd be calling sooner? Or perhaps it's the other way around, I'm overthinking everything. 
anyways thank you for replying, it's great seeing someone being in a complete opposite state of mind while going through a similar experience! I really need to work on my mind! Xx

I'm still waiting for the smear test results. It will be fine. I understand re: the meds thing. Luckily I trained in Somatic Movement Education and able to adopt more holistic approaches and changes in perspective but different strokes for different folks. Let me know how you get on. I'm sending you lots of healing energy. I know we shouldn't say but I geniunely feel that you're going to be ok but try to get control and really take super good care of yourself. X

Whatever you need to do to make yourself feel better make sure you do. Never wait to do it. Your mental health is paramount. Make sure you put that first above anything else starting now. I don't know what normal is by the way. I've seen loads of therapists, watch alot of youtube videos. You gotta do whatever helps. We're all just human, all just experiencing. It's a beautiful thing. 

Ah that's nice! I'm into hot yoga myself which had gotten rid of my panic attacks and anxiety by 80-99%, but now due to the loop procedure I can not practice that for at least 2-3 more weeks! It was definitely my escape, I used to go for 2h a day 5-6 days a week. Spinning out of control now due to not being able to do that which brought all my past mental health issues to the surface plus waiting on the biopsy results anxiety, what a mix... my mind is in a constant anxiety overdrive doing weird things now. I'm googling what you said you did, the somatic movement! Sounds interesting xx thank you for your kind and wise words x :love:

Very beautifully said, yes indeed! I'm usually well in control of my mind and very calm no matter what thankful for every second on this beautiful planet, but this experience has thrown me into a complete chaos like into a tornado storm of emotions, arghh feels like a dream honestly don't even remember yesterday or this morning, time is kinda standing still yet a day feels like multiple lifetimes and emotions! Hopefully all will be better soon and I will learn something from this

Ok, you already have an advantage. Absolutley get back onto yoga as soon as you can but in the mean time, you could look at things less physical to accompany yoga such as mindfullness, mediatation and breathing, Relaxation and sensory awareness...anything to keep you present, out of your head and into your body. Mediatation in nature. Being in nature is an amazing healer. There are so many things you can do just research like you are doing. You will do great. :happyX

Ok, you already have an advantage. Absolutley get back onto yoga as soon as you can but in the mean time, you could look at things less physical to accompany yoga such as mindfullness, mediatation and breathing, Relaxation and sensory awareness...anything to keep you present, out of your head and into your body. Mediatation in nature. Being in nature is an amazing healer. There are so many things you can do just research like you are doing. You will do great. :happyX