Unsure how long I will stay. Will find out more on Monday. X

• Hi Dollysocks I hope that it went ok at the hospital today and that you got some  reassurance about the op . 
  I hope that you get the chance to relax / distract yourself before Wednesday x 

It is understandable to feel apprehensive , but at this stage you do need to just get on with it and trust the medical staff who are very experienced . 

I think if you put it off then you would worry about that too . 

I always find the waiting the worst bit , so at least you are not far off your op and then you will need to get on with the practicalities of recovery . 

I think there are nurses etc on this site so if you do feel yourself having a bit of a wobble you can message them - although I think they are only about during office hours . 

Have a think about what it is you are worried about re the recovery and if there is anything you can do to plan for that . Again,  I think the unknowing bit  is hard . Is there anyone on this board who can give you an idea about the recovery . I know it will be different on a case by case basis , but you could prepare for the worst and hope for the best .  

Still waiting here for my biopsy appointment  x

To be honest cat cat it will be exactly 2 months from my initial drs appointment to the operation on Wednesday I am very fortunate. 

I just think with me its age, being overweight, high bp so I dont feel so free and easy. Ive had all the pre op tests ran through my history. Im not used to sitting around and have a demanding job. 

I think the next concern for me is the pathology results and recovery from the op. I just need to realise I cant go 100mph!!! 

I hope you get you biospy appointment soon. All the procedures and the waiting made me absolutely crazy, obsessive and anxious. It's no good mentally. Fingers crossed it's not too long xxxx

Maebelle. Have you been to the Doctors? Give us an update please x

Janet m-r. How are you?..... Yes totally understand the label cancer and the impact that your life will never be the same. We need to work through it difficult I know x

I’m so so sorry not to have replied further, especially as you were so kind in responding to my initial question.  I have been thinking of you both but after my last reply I had a bit of a moment and went into a depressive/anxiety state.  As well as the fear of having cancer it’s also highlighted how lonely/alone I am.

I went to the doctor and she has fast tracked me on the 2 week cancer pathway so I’m now waiting to hear about an appointment.

1. Dollysocks - I’m so pleased you’ve gone for the Wednesday surgery date - the waiting that is so stressful and this will be one more jump onto the road to recovery.  Please take your recovery slowly-both emotionally and physically x

Cat-Cat - I really hope you get the date for your biopsy soon.  The waiting is hellish for you x

Hello Maebelle really pleased to hear you have been referred and are now within the system. Yes it's understandable feeling alone you can come on here if you are lonely I know its not the same as in person. 

I am thinking of you and hope your wait isnt too long. Sending hugs to you and a nice cup of tea... That's what im having now xxxx

Hi Maebelle ,

That’s good that you are on the 2 week pathway and I hope you get things moving soon. 

I am sorry  that you are finding it tough . It is difficult going through this and I think it is understandable for us to re- evaluate other things going on in our lives . 

Just be kind to yourself and come back on here to chat when you feel up to it x