Hi there , no does not sound weird at all I feel like in living my last days until life changes ! I also am scared as like you say you can't plan as no idea until I wake up ! I'm praying it's reversible all I can do at the minute I'm so scared , nurse was also lovely gave me a pack with stoma bag etc in to have a look at and get the feel for it..its still in the car ! I feel I've dealt with chemo and I will deal with surgery. But seems no end to it , obvs hoping to be cancer free , hope all goes well for you too....pls let me know and I will you xx

Hi there , no it doesn't sound weird at all ,I feel like I'm living my last few days which is a bit silly ! But it'd how I feel ! Iv coped with diagnosis and chemo but this could potentially be for life , I just don't know how I will cope , awful to think I won't know either until I wake up , have to try focus on being cancer free , pls let me know how your surgery goes and I will you ..lots of love xx

You have dealt with chemo, so shows you have the strength to get through tough times. Keep this in my mind and take each day as it comes. I will find out if chemo needed or not once the surgery has been done. I am sure we can get through this and having somewhere to talk and share our feelings with others that are going through it is great and a real help and different to talking to friends and family, who love and support us but can't understand how we are fully feeling. Stay strong and I will be thinking of you. 

Yeah maybe it's time to be positive again, I have been so far because I knew chemo would come to an end , but no end to the next bit , It is good to talk to people going through the same , family and friends are great but hearing that you're so strong and brave gets a little tiring , we have no choice at end of the day , I do think it's sane as in the beginning bk in August its the unknown again that is daunting , hopefully you won't need chemo after but if you do it will be OK..lets focus on getting rid ! Be thinking about you too xx

I was thinking of you today.  Working so have been fairly busy.  Glad you are feeling a bit better about it all.   My daughter is ok better now following g her chemo last Friday.  When is your op? Xxx

Sorry you said Tuesday I will be thinking of you.  Lots of love x when you can let me know how you are doing xx

Hi there, glad you are feeling a bit better about your operation after speaking with the nurse. I had my 2nd chemotherapy today they have reduced them a little because I only had two good days out of the 12. I felt totally exhausted with zero energy. Good luck on Tuesday and I Hooe everything goes well for you on Tuesday. Stay strong thinking if you and sending hugs.                                   Anne Marie x          

Hi hope the reducing it helps a bit , yeah feel better than I have last couple of wks ..fine on myself but mentally not at all , just going to get it over and done with , hope you're feeling better soon..lots of love xx

Just wanted to say I am thinking of you today and tomorrow, stay strong and I hope to hear from you once we have both left the hospital and on the road to recovery x