Hi Beaumont44, 

I just wanted to say we are thinking of you during this stressful time. I guess the MDT meeting was today and I hope that you get an appointment soon to find out exactly what is going on. It's completely normal to be scared when dealing with all this uncertainty at the moment and after having been through all these tests. 

Let us know what you find out - you are not alone though and many members of our community have been through this before and will hopefully come and say hello soon and share their stories with you. While you are waiting, as there is nothing harder than waiting for a diagnosis, I thought I would share with you our helpful tips to help you cope while waiting for news. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

Thankyou for your response , nothing today but hoping a phonecall in the morning x

They have said my stoma is reversible but I’ve no idea how long I will have it for. As I had a sigmoid tumour which is not so low down it was quite advanced and my operation was 5 hours. 

Oh that's good news , I just wish I knew then I can prepare but il deal with it , are you waiting to see if you are cancer free now? Not sure how that next bit works xxx

I had a follow up with both my consultant’s registrar who said my op was good. They removed all the tumour and also removed all lymph nodes near the bowel and no chancer detected in any of them so the chemo had obviously done its job. After talking to my oncologist we decided no further chemo was needed at this point. It’s a kind of limbo now waiting for first yearly checkup which I find quite scary. I’m just concentrating on trying to get my energy levels back up and I get frustrated. The best advice I was given is be kind to yourself and just do what you can. Just been out for meal with my husband so it can’t be bad. X

Did you have a good Christmas? My daughter had chemo today she is feeling pretty rough.  Had a bit of a melt down she was feeling very anxious xx

Hi it was a nice day yeah thankyou , had call from hospital today to go in on the 2nd for bloods and prep stuff before I go in on 7th , I had letters today too about the op , im back to square one I think with the anxiety I honestly feel so so scared for stoma bag and people are saying it will be fine ! I honestly don't feel that way at all , aww bless her hope she's feeling a bit better today , im scared now for surgery too ! Hope you're ok and had a good Christmas xx

Lovely Christmas.  I know my daughter is getting anxious about her surgery we just hope the tumour has shrunk enough x

When does she finish chemo ? Xx

Her last one is the 10 January she has scans booked for the 20th January.  Then I think maybe 2nd February appointments with her oncologist and surgeon xx

It's the not knowing again for me basically if the cancer is low down in rectum il have a permanent stoma ..if its higher they might be able to save my sphincter then I will have a temporary one but I won't know until I wake up! Xx

I am in a similar situation,I have a sigmoid tumour, found out at begining of December and have op for surgery booked on 8th Jan. I thought I was coping ok with it all till a few days ago when the enormity of it hit.  Not sure what I am scared the most about,the cancer or the thought of having a stoma for life. I will not know about the Stoma till I wake up from operation so feel out of control and not able to plan for after the op. Saw the stoma nurse yesterday so I could be armed with more information she was great and explained everything but still struggling to process the thought of having one. Am starting to get very nervous about the operation and feel like I am counting the days down to me never being the same person again as I am.now, does that sounds weird?!

I keep trying to remind myself at least I will be alive and hopefully cancer free afterwards.

Hope all goes well with everyones Chemo and operations.

I am in a similar situation,I have a sigmoid tumour, found out at begining of December and have op for surgery booked on 8th Jan. I thought I was coping ok with it all till a few days ago when the enormity of it hit.  Not sure what I am scared the most about,the cancer or the thought of having a stoma for life. I will not know about the Stoma till I wake up from operation so feel out of control and not able to plan for after the op. Saw the stoma nurse yesterday so I could be armed with more information she was great and explained everything but still struggling to process the thought of having one. Am starting to get very nervous about the operation and feel like I am counting the days down to me never being the same person again as I am.now, does that sounds weird?!

I keep trying to remind myself at least I will be alive and hopefully cancer free afterwards.

Hope all goes well with everyones Chemo and operations.

Hi there , no does not sound weird at all I feel like in living my last days until life changes ! I also am scared as like you say you can't plan as no idea until I wake up ! I'm praying it's reversible all I can do at the minute I'm so scared , nurse was also lovely gave me a pack with stoma bag etc in to have a look at and get the feel for it..its still in the car ! I feel I've dealt with chemo and I will deal with surgery. But seems no end to it , obvs hoping to be cancer free , hope all goes well for you too....pls let me know and I will you xx

Hi there , no it doesn't sound weird at all ,I feel like I'm living my last few days which is a bit silly ! But it'd how I feel ! Iv coped with diagnosis and chemo but this could potentially be for life , I just don't know how I will cope , awful to think I won't know either until I wake up , have to try focus on being cancer free , pls let me know how your surgery goes and I will you ..lots of love xx

You have dealt with chemo, so shows you have the strength to get through tough times. Keep this in my mind and take each day as it comes. I will find out if chemo needed or not once the surgery has been done. I am sure we can get through this and having somewhere to talk and share our feelings with others that are going through it is great and a real help and different to talking to friends and family, who love and support us but can't understand how we are fully feeling. Stay strong and I will be thinking of you. 

Yeah maybe it's time to be positive again, I have been so far because I knew chemo would come to an end , but no end to the next bit , It is good to talk to people going through the same , family and friends are great but hearing that you're so strong and brave gets a little tiring , we have no choice at end of the day , I do think it's sane as in the beginning bk in August its the unknown again that is daunting , hopefully you won't need chemo after but if you do it will be OK..lets focus on getting rid ! Be thinking about you too xx

Just wanted to say I am thinking of you today and tomorrow, stay strong and I hope to hear from you once we have both left the hospital and on the road to recovery x

Hi I just wanted to say I will be thinking of you tomorrow. Stay strong and positive. Sending you hugs xx

Thinking of you lots of love xx

Thankyou , I will let you know how it goes , hope you're ok , lots of love xx

Thankyou , im nervous for the outcome but also want it over , I will let you know , hope you and your daughter are OK.. lots of love xx

Yes we are ok.  I completely understand you are nervous.  My daughter and I are feeling anxious about the ne t stage.  It will be all fine I am sure of it.   Lots of love xx