Hello Bubbles,

I can completely relate. I have crippling health anxiety. Currently writing this from my bed as I've tried getting up this afternoon and felt so ill from.the anxiety that i decided my bed is my safe place! Ive recently been given an urgent 2 week referral too. I found a lump in one breast which is very painful but wasnt too worried..at the time! As soon as my doctor felt my other breast and found another lump I didn't know i had, I immediately went into shut down mode! Barely eaten in the three days since. Not even thirsty. I feel frozen with fear and imagining all sorts (hair loss, death etc!). Im already scared if death and now i just feel debilitated and desperate. Ive tried borrowing some money to book privately but ironically, they're all closed at the weekend, which has made me feel worse. My mum died of ovarian cancer but no ine else in my family has Cancer history so im trying to calm down but instead my brain is on overdrive.

Feel so scared and alone. 

Im thinking of you. Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. Hugs x

Hi Danni so sorry to hear you are going through this too. I completely understand how you feel; I have terrible health anxiety too. I’m quite lucky in the fact I work every day (self employed) and I have two kids with complex needs to keep me distracted however it is still in the pit of my stomach all day. I love my bed too but I know if I stay in here I will spend all day googling. Try to eat and drink as the low sugar levels make the panic worse. I really hope all ends up ok for you. It’s all so stressful. I see a therapist for health anxiety and she keeps telling me not to look ahead, one day at a time and keep busy. I’ve tried to do meditation at  night as I can’t sleep but that seems to aggravate me more so I just watch very boring things on my phone in the hope the boredom will send me off to sleep. Stay in touch , I hope you find ways to have moments of calm x

Hello Bubbles...how are you feeling today? I can imagine your work and home life can be a blessing in the fact that whilst you're actively busy, so is your brain! Its those spaces in time where you remember and panic all over again. I feel like if Im sleeping, Im not thinking! I too, work everyday as an HLTA at a primary school. Its quite a challenging school and so like you, there's a lot of distraction and of course, focus on the children. They are a God send. My partner lives over an hour away but i have amazing pets which i find good therapy!

I practise mindfulness and have an amazing app called 'Balance', which i use before bed to try to send me off. But every night, ache, lump and bump is difficult to ignore. My appetite has completely gone and so eating feels wring although i know we should be treating our bodies better! Unfortunately I had intensive counselling last year and have been told i need to wait another siz months before i can request it again. 

I hope your day today is busy and keep telling yourself Google at the moment, is nit your friend! Stay calm and reach out whenever you need to to! 

Dannii x

Hello Bubbles...how are you feeling today? I can imagine your work and home life can be a blessing in the fact that whilst you're actively busy, so is your brain! Its those spaces in time where you remember and panic all over again. I feel like if Im sleeping, Im not thinking! I too, work everyday as an HLTA at a primary school. Its quite a challenging school and so like you, there's a lot of distraction and of course, focus on the children. They are a God send. My partner lives over an hour away but i have amazing pets which i find good therapy!

I practise mindfulness and have an amazing app called 'Balance', which i use before bed to try to send me off. But every night, ache, lump and bump is difficult to ignore. My appetite has completely gone and so eating feels wring although i know we should be treating our bodies better! Unfortunately I had intensive counselling last year and have been told i need to wait another siz months before i can request it again. 

I hope your day today is busy and keep telling yourself Google at the moment, is nit your friend! Stay calm and reach out whenever you need to to! 

Dannii x