Hi, I can't offer any advice really but wanted to say you're not on your own and I feel a lot like you describe.

I found quite a big lump and saw my GP a couple of days ago, from her reaction I could tell she thought it was pretty serious. I'm waiting for my clinic appointment to come through. Like you I keep feeling twinges in the area of the lump and I'm paranoid that it's my body telling me something. Logically I know it's probably just that I'm paying attention to it where I wasn't before.

The waiting is really difficult. I'm trying to keep myself busy, stay positive, keep things in perspective etc but it's not easy. I've been tearful too.

Can't really give you any advice but I guess we both just have to hang in there. Sometimes all you can do is put one foot in front of the other. Sending you all my best wishes x

Hello JaneW84 I am on the same boat as you. Found a large lump and now I’m terrified 

Hi Chelbel, so sorry you are going through this too. Have you been referred to the breast clinic? My appointment came through within a few days and it's on the 31st July. The waiting is horrible and all you can do is keep busy. I've been up and down with it. You're not on your own and you're in the right place for support here. How are you feeling? Big hugs xxx 

Jane 

good luck for your appointment xx love Lara xx

I’m hoping for my appointment this week. I’m so scared the lump is pretty big and quite hard albeit moveable but I just have a terrible feeling about this and keep thinking I’m going to die. I’m in such h a bad place. 

Chelbel 

this could stil turn out good news my love lots of lunps turn out good news on this forum 

and of it’s bad news so much can be done these days Ivor breast cancer xxx 

stsy hete for chats or hel anytime xxc

 laraj I am trying my best to be hopeful I truly am but all I keep thinking is cancer, chemo, death. How do I not do this?  I’m so very sorry I know this is so, so negative. I don’t want to scare anybody writing those thoughts down but this is currently my thought process. I second guess myself all the time. Has it been there ages? Is the fact that it’s big mean that it’s incurable?  Have I completely missed this lump, is it bigger? Is it smaller which then gives me slight hope but I ALWAYS return to the negative and google. I have lost half a stone in a week because I can’t eat. 

Chel

You can write anything hete we are here to listen and chat we have been there the thought process is normal , I thought my  life was over however it’s the complete opposite it’s only been one year I feel like it never happened. 
tgere are so many treatments now breast cancer is no way like it was years ago so much help and treatments available, after my operation my consultant said Lara in a few years you will forget this happened I looked at her thinking is she real however one year on even and it’s true xx 

I’m here to chat or help any questions or feelings are allowed here my love big hugs xx 

 laraj  please can I ask the nature of your lump. Size? where in your breast it was? Small/hard? Smooth/moveable? And what grade your cancer was? 
apologies if this is too personal but it might help me. 

Chel 

I never felt any lump , I felt a heaviness and my dog jumped on me and it hurt so that took me to breast clinic , lots day of it’s painfully it’s not cancer in my case mine felt bruised of pressed against .

so when I went to the breast clinic I was told there was a suspicious lump and I sort of knew from the atmosphere in the room they had found something nasty .

biopsy co formed a week later invasive ductal grade 2 her2 negative . The lump when was marked out to me felt hard non moveable it was on left side on bottom side 

These questions are not to personal I’m happy to share anything I can help with xx 

Hi Chelbel,

I am so sorry to hear that you feel so down at the moment. Sadly, this is fairly normal. Most of us tend to look at the worst possible outcomes before we even have a diagnosis. It is a fact that only 2 people out of every 10 who attend the breast clinic will get a cancer diagnosis. Not all lumps are cancerous. Many turn out to be cysts or fibroadenoma and some of these can be big too. I lost my mum to secondary breast cancer and when I was first diagnosed, I thought exactly like you. I had two young teenage children, who I wanted to see reach their milestones in life. 

I have now had 2 bouts of breast cancer, but there was no comparison between the diagnosis, treatment and after care, which my mum and I received. It is now 14 years since I got the first diagnosis and I still lead a busy and fulfilling life. In that time, I have seen my children leave school, go to university, graduate, find gainful employment, marry and provide me with 2 beautiful granddaughters.

I sincerely hope that all turns out well for you and that nothing untoward is found.

Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

 Jolamine Chelbel laraj 

Hi everyone, just wanted to check in and see how you all are? I got my results 2 weeks ago. It’s grade 2 oestrogen receptor 8 HER2 negative. After a really hard 2 weeks, I was totally prepared for my results as I knew it was going to be BC. I had to go back for a repeat ultrasound and guide wire last week and I’m booked in for lumpectomy next week. Based on what they know now they have said lumpectomy and then radiotherapy and hormone treatment. I’m feeling really positive about it all but I also know the treatment plan might change depending on how my surgery  goes. I think the big thing is getting over the shock of it all mentally, that’s been huge for me. I cannot change what has happened so it’s about how I deal with it that’s helping me through.

I am really thankful for all your kind comments, stories and words of encouragement, it has helped me so much x

 Jolamine Chelbel laraj 

Hi everyone, just wanted to check in and see how you all are? I got my results 2 weeks ago. It’s grade 2 oestrogen receptor 8 HER2 negative. After a really hard 2 weeks, I was totally prepared for my results as I knew it was going to be BC. I had to go back for a repeat ultrasound and guide wire last week and I’m booked in for lumpectomy next week. Based on what they know now they have said lumpectomy and then radiotherapy and hormone treatment. I’m feeling really positive about it all but I also know the treatment plan might change depending on how my surgery  goes. I think the big thing is getting over the shock of it all mentally, that’s been huge for me. I cannot change what has happened so it’s about how I deal with it that’s helping me through.

I am really thankful for all your kind comments, stories and words of encouragement, it has helped me so much x

Jolene 

sorry to hear this news thsts the same as I had her2 negative I had sane plan as you described 

you will fly through it just as I did sending you a big warm hug and to let you no we are all here for you anytime xxx love Lara xxx 

Thank you and I really hope I do as well as you have and honestly you have given lots of comforting words so thank you. The rollercoaster of emotions is unreal and speaking to people who have been t hrough it this really helps xxx️

Shall continue to keep you in my thoughts.

Hi Jolene,

Thank you for the update. I am so sorry to hear of your results. No matter how well prepared you think you are for bad news, it still comes as a terrible shock. Although this is not the news that you wanted to hear, you should feel better able to cope, now that you have had the diagnosis and you know what lies ahead of you. So, surgery, radiotherapy and hormone therapy - all very "do-able". I know that this can change with pathology results, but here's hoping that they don't. It's good to hear that you don't have long to wait for your lumpectomy.

I am glad to hear that you are feeling really positive about it all - the more positive you are, the better you'll cope with it all. Like Laraj, this time next year, it will all be behind you. I'm afraid that the rollercoaster will continue for a while, but as you know, we are always here for you.

Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on along your journey.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx