No, it's not immature to feel the way you do and I'm sorry that the way your Dad is responding is making you feel like your needs and worries aren't important - it also sounds as though this isn't something new, judging by the fact it had only just occurred to you after seeing that child with her mum, and perhaps your needs and wants have always come second.  Try not to spend too much time on analysing his behaviour, though - you aren't responsible for how he behaves and it's possible he doesn't want to think about you being ill, although I suspect that is not the case here.  He sounds like he has a lot of anger generally, and it probably has very little to do with you at all - you are in no way responsible for it, so try to take that off your shoulders, it's the last thing you need to be worrying about right now.

Your feelings of being scared and lonely are absolutely valid and you shouldn't have to beg for someone you love to support you.  Do you have any close friends who might be able to help you with hospital runs in the meantime?   They may be in a better position to be more supportive, too.

I am 36 years old and my Mum would attend every appointment with me if she thought I'd let her, so you're right that parents don't automatically stop being a parent when you become an adult, and even at my grand old age and being a mum of two myself, I still find it comforting and reassuring when she takes over and lets me rest.  You never stop being their child, they never stop being your parent.  That can mean different things for different families. If your parental connection has never been that strong with your dad, perhaps look for connection somewhere else and get support elsewhere.  If you feel like you can, maybe ask him what's going on, say it seems like you have a lot of anger at the moment, ask if he wants to talk about it.

And no matter what happens, there's support in endless supply on this forum. It's been a godsend to me recently.  I hope your appointments continue to go quickly and you get answers soon.  Wishing you all the best xx

Thank you so much Laura. I've realised that I was mainly focusing on the negative when I wrote this and there were times when my dad was caring and tried to comfort me but the negative moments did outweigh this.

My dad is caring in other ways like with my education and he stops my mum from trying to get me married overseas which lifts away one stress I could have had. He's very proud that I want to become a primary school teacher. But studying childhood development made me realise that my parents (and a lot of other parents) weren't aware that they need to meet the mental needs for their children as well as the other essential needs.

I know he doesn't like worrying people and there's been times he kept stuff secret from me to protect me. It feels quite weird because I wanted to know if there's a family history of cancer just for the purpose of my appointment and he denied it. I then found out from my grandma that there is. I think maybe he is worried about me being unwell but keeping it inside so I don't get worried. But if I knew about the family history, I might have been seen sooner.

I am really close with my grandma and my aunt (who I live with as their home is closer to my uni) and they usually complain that my parents don't care. But they see me go through the symptoms and I can talk to them whenever I want about it. My grandma has told my dad that she thinks he doesn't care and after that, he asked me to move back so he could look after me but I didn't want to. My mum does care aswell but we have a language barrier so it's hard to explain things to her.

I first assumed that the girl was a teenager because of how her mum treated her, then I heard her say her birth year and it was a year before mine. I felt like it made me realise that I am still young because I've just been trying so hard to grow up and deal with my problems myself. You are very right that parents don't stop being parents once their child become an adult.

Yes it does help a lot talking on this forum about my symptoms. Especially yesterday because I was going to wait to see if my pain from the sigmoidoscopy stays and then I received a reply that I should seek medical attention as soon as possible.

Thank you again for taking the time to reply and validate my feelings, it means a lot xx

Thank you so much Laura. I've realised that I was mainly focusing on the negative when I wrote this and there were times when my dad was caring and tried to comfort me but the negative moments did outweigh this.

My dad is caring in other ways like with my education and he stops my mum from trying to get me married overseas which lifts away one stress I could have had. He's very proud that I want to become a primary school teacher. But studying childhood development made me realise that my parents (and a lot of other parents) weren't aware that they need to meet the mental needs for their children as well as the other essential needs.

I know he doesn't like worrying people and there's been times he kept stuff secret from me to protect me. It feels quite weird because I wanted to know if there's a family history of cancer just for the purpose of my appointment and he denied it. I then found out from my grandma that there is. I think maybe he is worried about me being unwell but keeping it inside so I don't get worried. But if I knew about the family history, I might have been seen sooner.

I am really close with my grandma and my aunt (who I live with as their home is closer to my uni) and they usually complain that my parents don't care. But they see me go through the symptoms and I can talk to them whenever I want about it. My grandma has told my dad that she thinks he doesn't care and after that, he asked me to move back so he could look after me but I didn't want to. My mum does care aswell but we have a language barrier so it's hard to explain things to her.

I first assumed that the girl was a teenager because of how her mum treated her, then I heard her say her birth year and it was a year before mine. I felt like it made me realise that I am still young because I've just been trying so hard to grow up and deal with my problems myself. You are very right that parents don't stop being parents once their child become an adult.

Yes it does help a lot talking on this forum about my symptoms. Especially yesterday because I was going to wait to see if my pain from the sigmoidoscopy stays and then I received a reply that I should seek medical attention as soon as possible.

Thank you again for taking the time to reply and validate my feelings, it means a lot xx