Hey all!

I'm here, fear not, all good(ish) at my end. My main challenge regarding replying is that I'm doing this on my phone which is a right royal pain in the ar5e. The lovely Adrian bought me a shiny new iPad and keyboard/stand thingy recently for my birthday but it won't connect to the bl09dy router...blummin useless Apple products!!...so am awaiting the tech support Adrian to resolve ( could take some time).

I love that Christine after her full on blood story decided to tackle a thorny hedge... typical!! And well done, I do believe quite often in throwing caution to the wind (is that the saying! I'm forever getting sayings confused...causing much amusement). I like to think of you verging on three quarters re your advancing age, it's the accountant in me! Anyway glad you survived a potential blood-letting!! And Archie eats carrots? good eyesight as a result I hope.

I also got an all clear re annual mammogram, luckily I'm not a worrier as it took a mere 6 weeks to find out - due to holidays apparently!! I've my bone scan end of the month, think they're doing ok as no cracks yet when I regularly fall off my bike...oops.

An amazing time in sunny Donnie eh Caroline? That's a first on me . Glad you've finally got to fully celebrate your 50th. Am curious as to what you had to drink if it took you a week to recover, must be good stuff..

I've just returned from a long weekend at my father's, he's quite fragile now with mobility issues and sleeps all the time as the terminal cancer continues to progress, good to see him (and the north, of course) but sad also. Hopefully he'll make it to next year as would be remiss to lose 2 blummin parents in one year mmm??

 You'll be glad to know that my mother's 2 cats have integrated just fine with my 2 furry beasts, still a little hissing but nothing significant. I am the cat whisperer...or mad old cat woman? 

Just sent off the myriad of forms re my mother's intestate estate and paid the tax... joy. Hopefully be able to sell her house soon. 

So all fine health wise and an now trying to plan, for Dec, phase 2 of reconstruction (nipple on new boob, filling in where had lumpectomy plus lift, removal of underarm displaced fat!!), Hope surgeon can fit me in  as work are being a bit funny about time off.

And work is ok but just keeps getting in the way of much more fun activities!! I want to retire...

So other than having a very bruised (we're talking deep purple) bum (ref bike falling off!), am doing well. Glad to hear you're both fit and healthy (ish!). 

Keep well...and Christine stop giving your offspring palpitations!

Xx

Oh I've missed you, Sam!  
 

You make me laugh out loud. While it's really good that we are getting on with our lives post cancer trauma, it's lovely to catch up with you and Caroline, as you were with me from the beginning.. Sorry to hear your dad is going through so much. I lost my parents within fourteen months of each other and it was hard!  Good news about the cats, though. 
Glad your mammogram was clear but I don't envy you having the reconstruction.  I feel your pain re wanting to retire. That has been my daughter's mantra since the day I retired, nearly fifteen years ago! Her day is getting closer, though. She's an accountant, too, so has it planned almost to the day, dependent on her health not getting any worse. She is having her gall bladder out next week, on the same day that I have my mammogram.  Hopefully that will take care of one of her big problems.  
I forgot about the bone scans, I should be getting one soon, I suppose. Hopefully the calcium and vitamin D tablets I've been taking have kept them at the strength they were last time. They said I had osteopenia then, but no more than is expected at my age. You'll have to stop falling off that bike, though. That is pushing your luck!

I have been giving Archie pieces of carrot instead of more fattening treats on the advice of a vet last year when his weight was up.  This year his annual checkup was with a different vet and he had lost a whole kilo. The vet sounded concerned when she said he had lost weight but I told her it was the result of a year's effort on my part. He is now a perfect 7.5 kilos. He is also a sweetheart now  it was a long slog but he has turned into a well behaved, loving, polite little chap who is a pleasure to take out.

I hope you do get your reconstruction in December and that you recover from it well. Keep well, keep smiling, and get your iPad online  I can't imagine having to type these long missives on my phone.

Lots of love to you both, keep checking in now and again, please. 
 

Christine xxx

So lovely to hear from you both! Christine - wow! What an experience re your leg! And then cutting the hedge! Tough cookie. Hope your daughter's op goes ok. And my dogs love carrots too!! And cucumber! 

Sam, good to see your are doing ok too and not lost your sense of humour. Prosecco seems to be my downfall! And I still don't learn! Had a night out last night - which didn't end too pretty. Seems my health anxieties are not as under control as I thought and I ended up crying on my friend's front lawn, telling her I didn't want to die! ‍♀️. But happy to say that my mammogram results came back today and are all clear! Huge sigh of relief! But I'm sticking to the soft drinks this evening. 
Glad to hear the cats are settled and I'm sorry to hear that your dad is deteriorating. And maybe get some stabilisers for the bike . 
Speak soon.

Caroline 
 

Morning both,

Am (finally) on the new iPad…its so much easier to babble on (unfortunately for you two).

Thought I’d drop you a note as I approach another, and hopefully my final, operation to with this very annoying cancer gubbins!

All going really well here in spite of all the challenges out there!  Work is ok, still getting in the way of what I want to do with my life (cycle, gym, not work basically!), probably doesn’t help that there’s days are so blummin’ short. So last work day Monday and will be in central London for 7.30am (yay!) Tuesday morning for a new nipple, scar revision on stomach, reduction of new boob and fat grafting to old boob.  It will be a much more straightforward op than last Decembers and should only be 2-3 hrs…a walk in the park!  I get a night in hospital (as am private don’t mind this at all, its like a nice hotel only with not quite as good food).

Am all set for Christmas (ha!), all presses bought (despite the fact that I won’t see some pals till 2022), tree up (none of the 4 eejit cats have mounted it yet but there’s still plenty of time) and house looks as festive as I can be bothered making it look. I have yet to write my cards but am saving that for a chore during my recuperation (hopefully a couple of weeks).

I have a lift back from hospital by a pal who’s over from Ireland, not sure how skilled a nurse she is (she isn’t) but as long as she doesn’t poison me then that’ll have to do!  Adrian will be providing domestic assistance though his idea of ‘cleaning’ is quite different to mine - he’s more of a low standard but frequent whereas I am high standard of cleanliness but VERY infrequently!

Idiot cats have integrated really well, we have 3 fatties who make such a cacophony pre morning feed and little pretty Sulla who’s a real grazer and prefers to loiter upstairs but is very fierce! The latter makes feeding time every more challenging.  I need to make sure my eardrums are not pierced by the noise, I don’t lose a limb in the feeding frenzy and that Sulla actually gets to eat her food.  Hope both your hounds are in fine fettle, as are you of course (humans generally behind animals in my thoughts at the best of times).

My sister is over from Taiwan currently visiting my ailing father up north so will get to spend some time next weekend (and have her wait on me!) before she flies back.  My father is ok but is just on the slow steady decline energy and health wise that you’d expect with terminal cancer.  I’ll go up and see him in January after my recovery.  It would be nice to finish dealing with my mother’s estate before having to think about my fathers! The fact that he’s married will much simplify matters though. Still waiting for the nod from the probate office (so I can liquidate the mother's stuff) and am hoping her house is ok in Southampton (the gardener keeps an eye on it thankfully)

Christine - hope your daughter’s bladder op was ok and that you’ve arranged a bone scan (mine showed my bones have got better in the past 3 years - must be all that exercise!), I should have them every 3 years (as am osteopenic) - you may be the same? Tell your daughter to get a retirement countdown app (2 yrs, 7months…)!  Was your mammo ok?

Caroline - glad your mammo results all good. And its good to have a good (if alcohol induced) cry once in a while, I’ve been at the receiving end of some of those recently (for reasons a lot less impactful that cancer), I’m more of a loud and obnoxious drunk who thinks everyone loves her & is her pal and who falls into people/garden hedges/ponds….a joy to behold so I am told. And I don’t think no there’s been any bike accidents of late though did get 5 (a new record) punctures on a ride the other day and had to walk home in the snow for 90 mins (there was a confusion over inner-tubes, am usually very well organised to deal with such matters when out & about! Am now much better planned for this eventuality I hasten to add).

I hope you’re both behaving well and can therefore expect a good visit from Santa shortly

Sam XX

Loved reading your spiel.  Hope the op goes well and you have a speedy recovery.

We have a cat who has been in the Christmas tree before but so far this year she just gazes at it.  Biding her time no doubt.

It's been 2 years since my breast cancer op.  Had 2 mammograms since which were both clear.  Consultant said he no longer needs to see me - I'm just under the care of the Breast Care Nurse if I need any advice.  I have also had 2 bone density scans.  One was 2 years ago the other a month ago.  Slight improvement in osteopenia.  Was told I would have another in 2 years time.

happy Christmas 

Hi Sam, hi Caroline,

I don't think I could have gone through everything you have, Sam, even if I was 25 years younger, when I still cared about my boobs, ie before they went south.  
I have been on the verge of writing to you both several times in the last few weeks but stopped myself regaling you with tales of woe.  
My breast nurse called me for my telephone checkup a month ago, and during our conversation I told her about my adventure with the thrombosis in my thigh, and asked if she thought it could be anything to do with the Letrozole, because on the long list of side effects, it said on the Letrozole leaflet, if you feel any heat or pain along a vein to contact your doctor immediately.  She was quite surprised by that and said to stop taking it, for now and she would check if there was any relationship between the two things.  She also said she would organise a bone scan for me as it is more than two years since the last one. I got my copy of the letter she sent to my GP saying she would get back to me, but, since then I have heard nothing. After the fuss I made about not wanting to take the stuff in the beginning I am now feeling a bit uneasy about not taking it for a whole month and then some.  I rang the breast unit last week and spoke to the secretary who put me through to the nurses' phone, where I left a message asking Emma to call me about it. I still haven't had a call!  I have to go to my GP on Tuesday, it's that time again for injections In the old knees, so, if I haven't had a call tomorrow I shall ask my doc to follow it up for me.  That feels like telling tales but it's too easy to slip through the net these days.

Since my last message on here my daughter has recovered from her surgery, but has lost Smudge! He was diagnosed with a soft tissue sarcoma, which was removed with good margins, but he never really picked up afterwards.  To cut a long miserable story short he became very poorly and started fitting. He was kept at the vets overnight and the next morning the vet rang asking permission to stop resuscitation. He had crashed and started vomiting blood and there was no chance for him.  You can imagine how distraught we were.  We were able to go and see him although he had died by that time but we needed to say goodbye to him. We loved that little chap so much, I'm tearing up now, writing about it.  It turned out he had a tumour on his spleen and it was suspected to be in his brain and lungs,too.

While we were at the vets, my daughter's best friend came with her dog, and we were all crying on each other's shoulders. Three days later,  my daughter and her friend both tested positive for Covid. I had a few hours of feeling very ill with blinding headache and very high temperature. but was fine the next day. I did a lateral flow test, negative, then had to do a PCR test as a contact of the two girls but that was negative, too. The only difference between me and them was that I had my booster jab two weeks earlier!  My poor daughter then had to spend ten days isolating in her empty house feeling like death herself while grieving Smudge's death.  Fortunately I could get anything she needed and as soon as she was allowed to mix, I took her Archie to cuddle.  
Right tale of woe over!  
Last week I finally convinced my daughter that the only cure for her misery was to get a puppy and last Friday we were lucky enough to meet a breeder of miniature poodles who had two puppies ready to go. She wasn't overcharging for her KC registered pedigree pups, who had already been  chipped, had their health checks and both vaccinations. After a lovely couple of hours, surrounded by 2 mother poodles and 6 puppies, plus the rest of the canine household (and getting the third degree re our suitability as prospective owners) we brought home a sweet little apricot coloured boy. He just wanted to be cuddled that first day, an angel puppy.  Now a week on he's turned into devil dog! Not really, he's just a puppy and likes to play. Archie was curious at first, then a bit scared as Bobbin got more lively and bouncy, then, wonder of wonders, he started playing with him.  They race around like mad things, taking turns on who's chasing who. I can hardly call myself Sheltie lady any more when Archie is the only one, now.

My daughter has been signed off work until January as she  is still struggling with her chest, but she's getting better, thanks to having Bobbin, and I don't think she would have without him.

Sorry this has turned into a tome, as usual. I'm impressed by your preparations for Christmas, Sam, I will probably decorate this year, I didn't last year, but I only put the decs up the weekend before the event. My neighbour opposite has had a full set of lights up and populated her garden with all kinds of illuminated ornaments, since the beginning of November and her Christmas tree looks to fill her living room from here.

I really hope your recovery from the surgery is easy and the results worth it, Sam and for both you and Caroline,  If I don't hear from you beforehand, I wish you and yours a wonderful Christmas!

Lots of love

Christine xxx

Hi lovely ladies!

sorry for late check in. Firstly I hope you both managed to have a truly lovely Christmas - covid free I hope?! 
Sam, how did your op go? Have you managed to stay rested over Christmas? How is your dad? Did you manage to see him at all? Or are you booked in during the New Year? Did you manage to see your sister too? And did you get lots of lovely gifts for Christmas?

Christine, how is your daughter doing after her op and sadly losing her doggie :-( Also how is she getting on with the new puppy?! Did you manage to avoid the dreaded Covid after your daughter had it? And how are your doing with medication and your knee??

Life is good here. Christmas has been busy, 9 of us on Christmas Day. Lots of lovely gifts - including a robot hoover which I have fallen in love with! It had hoovered the downstairs yesterday, before I'd even got out of bed!! Today I have my family descending for New Year so there will be 13 of us and they are all here until the 3rd/4th when I will be totally exhausted just in time to go back to work!! 
Health wise, I am good!! I'm taking my tamoxifen - most days but still rubbish with my Adcal. I have an appointment with the breast nurse in March - check up I presume. I don't tend to worry much these days - but do still check myself regularly. Life has moved on!! 
Anyway - lots of jobs to do before the whole family arrive - fingers crossed covid doesn't decide to join the celebrations! 
Have a wonderful New Year and here's to another cancer free year!!! 
Love Caroline xx 

Good morning,

Happy New year to Sam and Caroline and anyone else who happens upon this page.

Lovely to hear from you, Caroline. Sam, I want to ask the same questions that Caroline has already asked, so no point in repeating them. I'm just hoping all is well. 

In answer to your questions for me:- my daughter is much improved but not back to her pre-Covid self yet (and that was far from healthy with her ME and constant migraines) Her doctor signed her off work until tomorrow and she really doesn't feel well enough to go back to her own job, which will have a backlog of work, plus, if colleagues have fallen ill too, there will be pressure to get their work done, too. However, the demon puppy has helped her mental health enormously.  As you know from your own recent puppy experience with Eddie, they are hard work but so much fun. I have told her to see how she feels in the morning and if she is still unwell ( as I know she will be) to call the doctor for another sick note.
Bobbin is a lovable monster!  He torments Archie, who is remarkably kind towards him, and only pretends to be growly with him. He has had a sleepover here, and just expected to sleep on my chest. Archie was a bit jealous, then, and he slept on my legs. Not a lot of sleep, that night, but it was surprisingly pleasant to have a tiny warm body snuggling up to me.

I am delighted to say that I did escape the dreaded Covid. I put it down to timing.  I had my booster just about two weeks before coming into contact with it, and it did its job of protecting me. The local daily rate in my post code area is 1884! I must be the only person who doesn't have it! My friend and her husband have it, half my neighbours have it  I think I'll dig in and keep myself away from everyone.

I am back on the Letrozole, I finally heard from the breast nurse. She said she was surprised I hadn't received a letter from my consultant to explain things, so he must have sent it to my doctor. I was at the doctors the next day for my knee injection and the only letter they had received was the one from the breast nurse on November 2nd!!!  Anyway, the risk of blood clots from the Letrozole is, apparently, very small so I should continue to take it. I was happy to do so, but now I'm back to hot flushes and night  sweats. The sweats are really annoying. I am sick of changing my bed, daily, so I now spray the damp bedding with a spray disinfectant that smells quite nice, then I switch on the dehumidifier for an hour or so, which makes everything feel clean and dry. 
I had a big birthday on NYE, so I am going backwards from now on.( 75 is for old people, not for me!)

Your Christmas sounds wonderful.  We went to my daughter's friend for Christmas Day- five people and five dogs - it was great. Robot hoover? Everyone should have one!  Might be next year's request.   I got a new printer, ( requested), from my son, but also a new IPad! I wasn't expecting that! It has some lovely new apps already installed, half of which I haven't investigated yet but I have found the measuring app, love it, not that I need it, but it was fun to play with it. There is also a band app with instruments to play. I have been thinking about getting myself a keyboard as I have always had one until recent years, I have played with enthusiasm if not style since I was a child. Up to now, the only thing stopping me was the fact there are only 24 hours in a day and reading and painting and sleeping already take up most of those. Having this little keyboard means I can have a little play with it without wanting to spend too much time on it. 
 

 I have finally got into a natural routine with my tablet taking. I have to take tablets in the morning, which I always remember, so I now put my evening ones out on a kitchen shelf at eye level when I take my morning ones, and, so far, I have seen them every evening when I get Archie's supper and I take them!  There is no way I would EVER be allowed to forget Archie's supper! I don't have AdCal, I have Calcichew, same ingredients but Calcichew is just like a sweet that dissolves in the mouth  it is vaguely lemon flavoured and I don't find it unpleasant at all. I suck it after washing the others down with water.

i really hope Covid didn't join in your New Year celebrations, Caroline, and I hope you are getting fit and well after you surgery, Sam.

Ditto to your wishes for another cancer free year, and lots of love to you both  
 

Christine xxx

Let me start by wishing you all a very Happy New Year!!

Hellooooo Christine, Sam and Caroline,

I have followed your posts from the beginning up to now, and I literally feel as though I've known all three of you all my life. Your upbeat vibes, humour and outlook on life in general, is everything I found I needed for 'good reading'. The more I read, the more my anxiety relaxed.

I was diagnosed with Grade 3 IDC triple negative, lymph nodes clear on 1st Dec 2021. I have no history of breast or ovarian cancer in my family from maternal/paternal side, so this was a shock (I know it has to start somewhere). 

After 3 ultrasounds, a biopsy, 3D imaging and a second biopsy, I'm currently waiting for my treatment plan on 14th Jan. It has already been cancelled once before, so fingers crossed I will know then when surgery/chemo will start. It seems like an awful long wait, considering my type is aggressive, but I can only put my faith and trust in the NHS. 

As i mentioned earlier, when reading your posts, I am relaxed so much I almost forget I have BC, as I get so wrapped up with your every day lives. But as I read on, I'm noticing all three of you don't post as often as you did. How come? 

It's great that as a trio, you have each other to bounce off and keep one another grounded with honesty (love this especially).

I don't sleep very well lately (hence, the time of this post) and my hubby berates me about my sleeping patterns, although he was on this very same cancer ladder 7 yrs ago, only it was contained in his kidney, which he ended up having a nephrectomy. The remaining kidney only had 24% function, but when he got Covid, it bought the function down to 2%!! He is now end stage renal failure, and has 4 hourly dialysis 3 days weekly. He is stable and has been for 5 yrs, but he forgets he didn't either sleep, eat or think rationally all through worrying about the "what if's". I researched and absorbed as much info as I could about his condition and supported him in the best way my newfounded knowledge would allow. I don't worry about him now, as I know he is fine.

He says he understands where I'm coming from....Hmmm I wonder, he (as far as I know) hasn't researched my type of BC. He only knows what I've told him, but when telling him anything re my BC, it seems like it's too much information overload....so I don't say much.

Anyhoo!  Take care ladies and hurry back! Hope this post finds you all as well as can be expected.

Much love xx :love:

Vee