Wow.you are really strong.Do you have chemo non stop or you can say I want break?I don't want to be in hospital non-stop.

What a great inspiring reply. You guys rock!. Take it onboard Denise and rock against cancer xx 

My C count was quite high when they found it i had kemo for three months the count went down to reasonable level when it rises to to certain count more kemo, specialist don't always get it right i was told I'd need more cemo before 1 year its been over 3 if I'm lucky i could go over 4 "before i need more i was still working metal fabrication and welding till the end of last year then Mrs got ill so I had to retire to look after her full time you can still have a good life after treatment,. Think about it,. Best wishes.

Billy 

You are really inspiring.I have a such of imagination that I will have to have nonstop chemo for 12 or 24 months.I just can't cope with that idea.Also I don't really quit my job.At the moment I am SSP and just handed my 1st sick note last month.

You do have a vivid imagination, remember I'm only guessing you'll probably have kemo so many weeks maybe two months not full time maybe once a week, maybe some radiotherapy for so long then carry on with your life you'll nead checkups now and again, remember I'm only guessing some of the ladies might pop in there's [@Marlyn]‍ and others,.

Billy 

There is so much support on this forum love, like our chriss says.....take a deep breath......none of us wants to be here but without all these wonderful people I really don't know what I would have done....they're a real leveller.....

chemo doesn't mean being in hospital 24/7 , they monitor you closely and do everything to keep you well.....I was only really ill in the first week of  each of my chemotherapy cycles, but managed to keep working......

come on love.....fight.....don't give in to it.....you have so much ahead of you to live for...xxx

Hi [@Denise1977]‍  I am so sorry to hear how you are feeling right now but i think everyone here has felt the things that you are feeling right now (myself included) 

Now i know i am completely different to you as i don't even have a diagnosis yet but i'm going to tell you a wee story, please stick with it because it seems nonsense to start with.

I have spent the last almost 3 weeks feeling like i've been punched in the stomach by Mike Tyson and don't know what i am going to do, i've lost almost 1 stone in weight with worry in those weeks, lack of sleep, can't eat and thought i would drop dead next week but today something changed. My sister (who doesn't know what's happening with me) asked me to dog sit and honestly, it was the last thing i wanted to do but i reluctanly said yes, Buster is a wee sooky dog and wants attention and a wee clap or a belly rub all the time and i found it soothing for me as well as him, lol,

I am not suggesting you rush out and get a dog because i imagine you have your hands full with other things, anyway, i decided to take Buster for a walk and while i was out in the field on my own i suddenly realised something, in my 52 years of life i have worried and cried about situations/life events more times than i care to remember but do you know what ? Not once did my fears and worrying and tears ever change the outcomes of any of those events, all i had done was channel every emotion conceivebale into a BIG FAT NOTHING, it changed nothing, so today i made a decision while i was in that filed that if i have a fight on my hands then i need to be as strong as i possibly can be to do that so i need to eat to keep my strength up and give me some power to get through this, i decided this at 12.30 today and it's now after 7.30 so that's a 7 whole hours i haven't worried for and that's a darned site better than the last 3 weeks have been.

I know that as soon as my eyes open tomorrow that Mike is going to punch me in the stomach again and it will start all over again but if i can do tomorrow, what i did today then i will be pleased with myself for putting that worry worm to bed for a few hours at least.

I haven't actually replied to anyone on here yet as i am still "new" so i truly hope that you don't think my story is making light of your situation because that is not my intention, even if you could try my suggestion and it only  helped you for 1 hour then that is still something, please try it honey.

Hey, it probably took you 15 minutes to read my post so that's 15 minutes you probably didn't worry for :grin:

Hi puddle jumper ...

You have seen the light ..  I too worried bout so much.. till I realised a few years back, we spend our lives saying "what if" when we loose today ... no one knows if they have tomorrow ... so live in the day .. take every problem as and when it comes up .. make every day a memory day ... 

I know it's changed my life ... just wish I'd known it when I was a lot younger ... so hope you stay with us puddle jumper ... and yes loved your little story ... it could change how you see everything ... funny how just a dog can do so much ...  Chrissie xx

Hi [@Chriss]‍ thanks for reading my little story, sadly today that light faded a bit and i have gotten all uptight again. Only had my PET scan yesterday so still know nothing yet but hopefully tomorrow i will see that light again :)

I do hope to stick around as no one knows more than those who have experienced the same things and i think we could all do with a little help and grounding from others when we are bewildered by it all.